hello, i am unsure if this this normal and im being dramatic, or this is wrong and i shouldnt just carry on being completely normal with everything. i cant tell anyone about it so ill tell you. my boyfriend and j have been dating almost 6 months. and before him i hadnt even kissed a boy. he is the first person i have ever loved but i have this weird gut feeling. about 2 months ago, we were kissing and stuff and then he asked if i wanted to have sex and i said no. he then kept on asking me and then gave up and accepted my no. once he left he messaged me saying how sorry he was and he wouldnt do it again. next time i saw him he did it again. he kept on asking me and i kept on saying no and we are too young and i didnt really want to. and then the same thing happened, he messaged me saying how sorry he was. i went away for the weekend to see family and one night we were messaging and he kept saying how we werent a good match because of it and all this stuff and then i phoned him and he was crying and stuff. he said that night he definitely never wants to have sex and then next time i saw him he tried again and begged me. i knew what would happen if i said no and i didnt want to keep going around in the same circles. i said yes. i didnt really enjoy it but he finished quickly so he must have liked it. and then every time i saw him he wanted to do it and so i said yes and just did. now we have stopped doing it alot. i guess he got bored. but i dont know if this is okay and normal. i havent told anyone this happened apart from one friend and im too scared to talk to anyone else. im sorry this is so long.