Ever had one of those days where you wake up and nothing feels quite right? That’s me, having one of those days. I was waking up everyday with thins sinking feeling.
It’s difficult to describe why I was feeling down. Everything I did was just that little bit harder.
School was terrible. All my lessons just merged into one, I couldn’t concentrate on anything. It was like I didn’t fit into the world anymore.
I felt sad and alone even when I was in a place full of people. It was like being invisible. Well…almost.
I was too ashamed to talk to my friends about the horrible thoughts in my head. Could you image the conversation? ‘How are you? Good, but sometimes I want to kill myself.’
Not likely. I knew I didn’t want to feel like this anymore. So I went onto the Childline website, just to see if they could help. And you’ll never guess what…There were so many people online, all talking about the feelings I was having!
I posted a message and another girl replied. Then I chatted to a Childline counsellor. She helped me understand why I was feeling so down and how I could find the strength to get through it. It was such a relief.
I’m getting back on my feet now, but it takes time. Childline taught me that you don’t always have to put on a brave face to everyone. Anyone can get depressed.
