Dear Sam, for the past year, i have constantly feeling depressed. Im always arguing with my mum and dad, and my older sister is always calling me names such as; ugly,fat,slag etc. And it drives me to the where i end up cutting myself, ive tried councelling at school but they didnt do anything! My bestfriend E* goes through the same thing so i speak to her about it,but it doesnt help either because she doesnt know what to do. I always feel lik giving up, school and exams are drowning me, i come home to arguing with my parents, and my im extremely self concious. I wish i could just end it and die. Please help me, im so close on giving up
Sam
Hi there,
It sounds like there has been a lot going on for you and its really getting you down at the moment. Things between you and your family can be really difficult at times as you say that youre always arguing. Im not sure from what youve said what these arguments seem to be about but it sounds like it can all feel pretty overwhelming for you at times.
Im really concerned to hear that its all been leaving you wanting to cut and feeling so low that you wish to die. At any times when you do cut it is important to keep those cuts clean, so that they dont become infected. If they dont stop bleeding quickly you may need to get some medical help, perhaps by calling 999 for an ambulance if you feel like its an emergency or by talking to an adult you trust who can get some help for you.
ChildLine can support you with all that is going on and give you space to talk through things that are getting you down. Talking to a ChildLine counsellor can help things to change and can give you some safer ways to cope when things feel really hard. It is important to speak to someone when you feel like you may wish to harm yourself.
Im not sure whether youve ever felt able to talk through with your parents some of the things that you and they argue about. If thats not something that you have done but feel that you might like to try, you could talk through how to do it with a ChildLine counsellor. You can call 0800 1111 (all calls are free and dont show up on the bill) or log on for a 1-2-1 chat.
It could be helpful for you to take some time to think about how you might like things to be between you all. Perhaps think about what your parents could do differently and what you could do different to get things to change. Sometimes it can help if everyone involved takes time to listen to the other person. If talking this through with your parents aloud seems like it might be too hard to do then perhaps writing it down in a letter would be helpful. You could take a look at our family relationships page for more information and advice.
It sounds like youre also feeling under a lot of pressure at school too. You may also like to take a look at the school pages in the Explore section for advice and ideas.
It sounds like you feel disappointed with how the counselling at school went but its good that youve felt able to share with E* how things feel for you. Writing this letter was a really brave step to take. There is always someone at ChildLine for you to talk to, especially at times when everything is feel too much.
Take care,
Sam
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