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Hey there,
Thank you for your message.
Losing someone close to you is one of the hardest things in life to cope with and it can lead to all kinds of different feelings. Some of those feelings are very difficult to deal with and they can seem quite overwhelming at times, but they are a normal part of the grieving process. If you are angry with yourself, or with everyone and everything, then you are certainly not alone. Feeling angry is very much a natural reaction to loss.
There is no right or wrong way to feel. There's also no proper time scale for when people might start to feel better. Different people react and cope in different ways. You will know how you feel and nobody else can tell you what you should be feeling.
One way of remembering your mother might be to put together a memory box, with photos, gifts or other special things that would help you to hold on to the good things that you remember about her.
You say that you need to make sure that your mother is not mad at you. It sounds like you are in some way blaming yourself for what has happened. This can also be a natural feeling, even when youve done nothing wrong.
It is important that you try to look after yourself through all this and to be kind to yourself. Nobody can feel strong all the time or stay positive throughout everything that happens. There is no need to hurry your feelings along and try to put pressure on yourself to feel better it can take time for things to feel more settled.
Some people find that talking about how they are feeling helps them to cope, but when someone dies this may be difficult to do if the people closest to you are also affected by the loss. You can always talk to ChildLine, if that would be helpful. If you would like to talk to a counsellor, you can phone ChildLine free on 0800 1111, or send us an email or log in for a 1-2-1 chat. The counsellors are there to listen to you and support you.
You might also like to take a look at our page called when someone dies, or look at the message boards and see what other young people have said about how they have coped with the loss of a loved one.
Take care,
Sam
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