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Hi there
Thanks for writing to me and explaining how things are for you right now. Feeling angry seems to have been something that has happened for a while. Its unfair that this is as you describe it, impeding on your life. I can see that you are trying to work out if there is an acceptable amount of anger that people might have. Whats important is the fact that you seem to have reached a point where something is telling you that being so angry doesnt feel right for you.
I notice from your letter that its also causing some difficulties with your education. It can be difficult when something we feel we cannot control begins to interfere with something we enjoy or are good at: or something which is important to us like school or relationships.
Im concerned that your cuts are getting deeper, as it makes me wonder if cutting in the way you have before, is no longer enough for you. I really want you to be safe. You dont say how it makes you feel when others make comments about your cuts, but Im sensing it does upset you.
I think because of how things are for you, you might really benefit from some support. ChildLine counsellors often talk to young people about anger and self-harm and can be really supportive by listening to them, without judgement and helping them to find a way forward. You could talk to a counsellor, by ringing ChildLine on 0800 1111, calls are free. Another way would be to have a 1-2-1 chat online. What would that be like for you?
You might also get some support if you speak to someone in school like a school nurse, pastoral mentor, head of year whoever you feel you could trust. Another way to get some help would be to see you doctor.
Just to let you know, what you tell ChildLine is confidential, unless we believe your life is in immediate danger. However, school or your doctor might not be able to keep what you say confidential. It therefore might be a good idea to check out their rules of confidentiality first, then you can have control over how much you tell them. I hope that makes sense.
Whatever you decide, I hope you will take good care of yourself.
Thanks again for being brave enough to write in.
Bye for now.
Sam
You can talk privately to a counsellor online or call 0800 1111 for free.
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