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Hi, Sam, I'm confused on my seuxuaility.
My bestfriend, H, is "bicurious" or so she says, and for a few months I thought I was in love with her. I'm attracted to girls, but the thought of... Oral sex with them makes me screw my nose up.
I don't know.
I think girls are hot and stuffss.
E
Hi E,
Thanks for sending in your letter. Its really common to develop feelings of attraction for people who are close to you, like your best friend, H. Its also perfectly normal for you to be attracted to girls, boys, both or neither. Youve said that youre confused about your sexuality, and I want you to know you dont have to fit it to any particular box or label. Its OK to just accept who you are attracted to at the moment and see where that leads.
Youve not said if youve ever talked to H about how you feel. Its important to consider how you would go about telling her that you like her. Its also worth thinking about the different ways that she might react and that would make you feel. Moving a friendship on to the next level and making the relationship a romantic one can be really tempting, especially when you know you already get on well. However, it can also can be really difficult and upsetting if it goes wrong at any point, so its important to think about the risks before making a decision.
As for oral sex, you dont have to do anything youre not comfortable with. Different people express themselves sexually in different ways. Everybody likes different things and it's OK if oral sex isnt appealing to you. Its good that youre thinking about what you like and dont like. In a positive, trusting relationship, the person you are with should always respect your decisions about what youre ready for and comfortable with.
If youd like some more support or just a chance to talk things through, please think about talking to a ChildLine counsellor. You can call for free on 0800 1111 or log in for a 1-2-1 chat. You might also find it useful to have a look at the information on Sexual orientation in Explore or share your experience and get support on the message boards.
Take care,
Sam
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