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Hi there,
Thanks for your letter.
It sounds like it's been a very difficult year for you. It can be very hard to cope with so many changes happening in your life and youve shown a lot of courage to write to me.
I can hear that things at your new school started okay but now it feels like everyone hates you. The incident you described in the changing room sounds very distressing and overwhelming for you. It seems like this is almost the opposite to how school felt for you before you moved. Its not okay for people to bully you and it is not your fault that they are treating you this way.
It sounds like being bullied has made you start to think about suicide and thats worrying to hear. I want to encourage you to try to talk to someone about these feelings. You dont sound like a drama queen, you sound like you are struggling to cope at the moment.
You don't have to be alone when you feel suicidal. The ChildLine counsellors can support you and help you keep yourself safe. Its okay to talk to them about feeling suicidal but if they feel like you might try to do something to end your life then they may need to tell someone who can help you. You can find out more about that if you read our confidentiality promise. You may also find it helps to look at our page on coping with suicidal feelings.
You can talk to a counsellor any time, day or night, by phoning free on 0800 1111. You can also log on for a 1-2-1 chat or send an email.
All schools have a responsibility to protect you from being bullied. They will have an anti-bullying policy which explains what they will do if you tell them you are being bullied. Its okay to ask to see this policy so you can understand what will happen if you tell someone at school. You might like to think about talking to a teacher you trust to explain whats been happening and how it makes you feel. Writing down what the bullies do can be helpful as it means you dont have to remember everything when you want to tell someone.
Talking to a parent or carer about being bullied can feel difficult, but it might also be really helpful. You could think about writing them a letter if saying the words out loud feels too hard. There is some more advice you might find helpful in our Bullying section. You could also see if you can use these tips to help you make new friends at school.
I hope this helps.
Take care,
Sam
You can talk privately to a counsellor online or call 0800 1111 for free.
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