Emm sorry guys this is gonna be a rant but i seriously need help thanks! x
So theres this boy. Lets call him…S. I have liked S for about 7 months now and its getting to the point now where im just desperate to be with him. We have so much in common, and i love his personality and everything about him.There is a few issues tho:
1. We used to sit next to each other in class and that was when i began to like him. It was just friendly teasing back then, but then my friend told him i liked him and i panicked so i told him it wasnt true, even though i knew he wouldn’t believe it. Now we only have one class together, once a week and thats the only chance i have to talk to him, but we never do. I feel like i know nothing about him and we barely talk, and we havent snapped each other on snapchat in like 5 months ngl.
2. S is part of the popular group. If i messaged him it would be so weird and he would probably just show his friends who would then laugh at me. He also talks and flirts with all the popular and older girls which makes me feel so jealous. The popular group is so fun and ive always wanted to be one of them but i just feel rejected instead and idk how to talk to them.
3. Sometimes i feel like he hates me. Theres been many times where the way he acts towards me or looks at me that makes me think how much he must dislike me, but then other times where he tries to be sarcastic and jokey with me. (this is rare tho)
4. I get so nervous when i talk to him that i say weird stuff that i then look back on and think about what i could have said instead, so im worried he thinks im weird.
I just wish S would wake up and realise that im perfect for him, we’re so similar and i really know this relationship would work!
Sorry for the long message thank youuuuu xx