I started talking to a girl 4 months ago and we just clicked and got on so well. We really liked talking to each other every day so after less than 2 months we met up and it was love at first sight. On that night I got my first kiss. It was so magical and from then on I started to love her. We went out again a few days later and I decided to ask her out and she said yes! We then both agreed that it was best to not be serious until after GCSEs (we're in year 11) so I've not seen her since. Our connection grew stronger in the next 2 months until she told me last week that she wanted to end it all. I'm still devastated and heart broken. I've been in denial for the first few days but now I'm just sad and I feel so bad as I love her so much. I understand that she's not in the best place right now and that she may want to be by herself for a while but I'm just so devastated. I don't know what to do with myself anymore I was so excited for the summer but my dreams have been crushed. It's not helping that for the last few days she's been ignoring me. It feels awful. All the things we said we wanted to do and all the things you loved that I said and did are now meaningless? She loved the fact I always wanted to help her on her darkest days but she just randomly decided to tell me she wanted to end it all. I don't even know if she wants to be friends anymore as she's been ignoring me lately. I miss her so much. I just want her back. I don't know if there's anything that can help this as this a foreign feeling to me. She was the person I would turn to in my darkest days and she was always there for me when I needed it. She was the perfect girlfriend as I felt I had a girlfriend and a best friend in one. It's just hard for me to lose her as she meant so much. I love her so much.
