Hi, Im 13 (14 this year) and I lost my dad when I was 9. I ended up finding him collapsed and called the ambulance which many see as heroic but they don't understand how it still affects me. Tomorrow (22nd May) is the anniversary of his death and I can't seem to pull myself together. Even without it being the anniversary I always suffer with "trauma responses" (my teacher thinks so) by not being able to show sympathy for close friends or family but can for others. As well as low self esteem and mood. But near the anniversary it just got worse, I feel worse. I dont know what to do because i hate this but theres not alot I can do to feel somewhat okay.
AlertSkatingFalcon3771 / May 21 2022 20.39