hi everyone, my name is adam and a few months ago i lost my twin brother to suicide.
we were identical and now my parents cant even look at me, my dad just yells at me to go away and my mum wont acknowledge that i exist. he was my best friend and we did everything together and he's gone. they only put "beloved son" on his gravestone and wouldn't let me put brother on there even though he was. i have three other brothers, two older and one younger, and theyre all feeling awful, but my parents are still acknowledging they exist and not me. i understand that me and my brother looked exactly alike, we even shared a wardrobe, but now he's gone and they won't accept the fact that im hurting too. its like they don't even care about me.
it hurts a lot that they dont seem to care that im grieving too, but i guess i understand. people at school havent been very nice about it either though, they keep making jokes that im his ghost instead of being a real person and making fun of the way he died. obviously in front of teachers everyones really respectful but i can hear them whispering about it behind my back. it sucks.
i just miss him a lot and i cant really talk to my family about it since i know theyre hurting too. i guess i dont really know what the point of this is but i just wanted to talk about it a bit. thanks for reading.