I reported what happened twice. The first the month it happened and the second the next school year, about six months later. This was two years ago, the boy who did it is in my English lessons and more. The teacher who was present didn't realise or chose not to realise what was going on in the middle of the classroom. He touched up my best friend a few times and still tries to talk to me. Over the years, that one incident, in which he was only isolated for a week and the teacher fired for other reasons, has changed into a constant paranoia of males. My teachers, my fellow students, my dad at a point, my older brother and even my nephews for a period. I am so uncomfortable with guys that I won't talk about my problems to them, and I won't look a guy I don't trust in the eye at all, not the face or even direction in some cases. My ex and guy best friend, I still can't thoroughly think right if he'd do something like that or not.
For clarity, I'm a fifteen-year-old autistic suicidal, depressed, anxious girl. My attendance is at 13.5%, and my parents will soon be fined. I've had to grow up and say stuff isn't right, but I am still a child; I am still fearful. I seem lazy, and taking advantage of my "freedom" being told to "just get on and do it" or "just go in" doesn't help. Nothing helps, and I've been fighting a battle since I started primary school. I hurt myself, I want to hurt myself worse, but I can't; I have responsibilities as an aunt and a daughter. As a best friend. Any advice? I'm lost and confused and afraid of everything. Please can anyone help?