I'm 17 year old boy. When I was maybe 7 or 8 years old I was sexually abused by another boy multiple times who was 10 or 11, now 20. For a long time I struggled with whether I was actually abused or not because he was a kid too and I agreed to it at the time not understanding what was really happening. I think I've come to the conclusion that I was abused though. I struggle with the thought of it everyday. I don't know if I should blame him now or not because he was only 10/11 years old, but at the same time, I knew right from wrong at that age and I never thought of doing anything like that.
I really don't know. I'd like some opinions on that, and on what I should do in this situation given I still struggle with it now. It goes without saying there's no evidence of this ever happening so I can't really tell anyone because it would be my word against his, and my parents are still friends with his parents and it would cause a lot of issues I don't want to deal with.