hi, Im 11 years old. i was bullied when i was about 8 or 7 by my neighbour (1 year older than me) im recovering a bit but i have anxiety
i was always more "girly" than my neighbours so they probably didnt like me anyway but when a popular girl from my primary school moved to my street, all my other neighbours my age wanted to be her friend. she created a game/club and i was the third member in it. to begin with there were only 4 people. Because I was girly,i tried to change for them. i stopped wearing pink and I started to hate myself. I was 7 years old but I still remember that awkward feeling whenever i talked to them.
They eventually left me out of games, but the worst part was when they kicked me out of the game/club. they said it was because I spied on them but i didn't and i know it was because I was annoying and they hated me.
Recently I was diagnosed with anxiety and then found out that the girl goes to the same secondary school as me. i avoid her at all costs and i cant walk past her house without having a panic attack. there was other stuff happening at school at the same time which made it worse.
Ive never told someone other than my therapist about this, so i wanted to tell someone. thanks for reading this!