Hi, im a 15 girl who believes i may suffer from bulimia and body dismorphia but i feel like i can’t tell anyone. I eat small ammounts of food but can’t go without forcingly throwing it up. I did this for a bout a week then it started affecting my boyfriend and i had to forcefully put it to a stop. but the feelings never went away for me, and it has started again over the past few days. Then one weekend, when it first started happening, my mum noticed i didn’t want food from my favoutite place we visit weekly and joking asked if i was suddenly anorexic, which made me feel horrible and sent me in a mental spiral. I want to see a doctor but i am worried how everyone around me will react and how it will affect the ones i truly love, I have told 1 friend who went through a horrible period of not eating because i felt she was someone i really trusted and could help with what i am curenty experiencing. i just want help, i use to truly love food and now its nothing to me. it makes me anxious to eat around others and when i see large ammounts of food it makes me really queasy, i just wish i didn’t have this thoughy mentalitly. i also think i have possible body dismorphia due to people telling me i look really skinny when i think im fat and find it difficult wearing more revealing outfits. I don’t know ehat to do, i wish i could tell my sister but im worried what will happen after. Am i overthinking all this? I just don’t like eating anymore, it never stays in longer than 5 minutes. I wish no one else has to go through what i do, its the most downgrading, deteriating thing ive ever felt.
DazzlingCyclingPanda7225 / Sep 12 2021 22.31