hi im natasha.
ive been bulimic for a while and that was a whole thing but im trying to stop and its been two weeks and stuff so. anyway
ive found myself heavily restricting, my mum - whos a doctor - even says im anorexic as a joke which makes me literally want to break down lol. but like i make sure im always hungry and i work out a ton so i am losing a bit of weight. i like the feeling of that idk why. but people at school are noticing i dont eat lunch, and i cant deal with school knowing because my school hates me and they make my life hell. so, i wanna eat lunch but if i do ill end up making myself throw it up anyway. like its realky messing witb my head. im tired and im hungry and i really want a hug. idk why im talking here. i just need to say it i guess. i wish i saw food and not calories or macronutrients. its literally eating my alive i want to cry.