Hi, I’m Eva and I’m 12 (I’ve just gone into year 8)
I was bullied last year and I’m just stuck on what to do ect
My bully is called E and she’s manipulative and always needs to be the center of attention
It all started with some jokes my ‘friend’ (E) said to me. Then, soon after, I reilised these jokes were true. I self-harmed after that. She then physically hurt me, pushing, punching and the likes one but it was all ‘a joke’ according to her. We had a fight on my form’s group chat, and she said some cutting things. I told her that her jokes killed my selfconfidence (bearing in mind she knows I was self-harming). I told our form tutor (I’m gonna call her Miss MC) and she asked if we wanted to sort things out and become friends. As I was nodding she said no. She then started ignoring me, telling me to shut up and that no one cares about what I have to say and multiple times I apologised and asked if she wanted to stay friends. She said yes multiple times and proceded to betray me. That went on for ages, I also stopped self-harming in that time and then self-harmed again after her bulling me.
Now we are ‘friends’ wnd she seems to think that we are extremly close again. I want to push her away, and one of my genuine friends feels very awkward when she’s around. I can’t let my real friends get hurt, and this is all my fault.
How do I push someone away without feeling guilty? Self-harm is on my mind too and she’s started making jokes again. I think I’m gonna start crying in lessons again...