So i have a summer school soon and I'm stressed out. I have a lot of trauma from being grmed and immensely buied to the point where I got aslted s3ally and physically and no one did anything. I suffer from disassociation and basically there is just a long list. In year 10 I was at a really good ballet school but as it was only a decade old it couldn't really handle the lockdowns cause of finance issues etc. and so my ballet training ended. I have been really struggling for motivation and even though I know everything will be okay, I'm just scared cause I know wont be as good as I can be in the summer school. As well as this, I'm going to a prestigious ballet school in September and I'm scared they will kick me out cause I'm not as good as I know I can be. I really struggle with motivation to do things because of my anxiety and life can be so exhausting, especially with all my trauma and mental health issues. I just want someone to hear me and maybe offer any tips?
Thank you sm,