
So, I know it probably won't last, but I finally feel worthy, and determined. Back to me. I've been really messed up lately, thinking about death, nihilism, my future, philosophy, psychology, and nothing made sense, and I felt like my whole existence was split. I have been worried about dying, wanting to die, feeling utterly hopeless and completely hopeful at the same time. I have switched between being religious, superstitious and selfish. But now I finally feel like I can do anything! This isn't like 'happiness' where I'm not actually happy, I'm just not sad, this is real. I forgot what it felt like to feel like this and I am too happy to not share it. I am so glad I didn't give up and get expelled or kill myself in that time. I love you babes, go get anything ❤️