FAIRLY OBVIOUS TRIGGER WARNINGS, LIGHT DESCRIPTIONS OF SEXUAL ABUSE (READ AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION):
For reference I am the same account-user as OceanRaven but I forgot my password and so have created a new account and saved it to my mac-book. If you see any more activity from that surver, which I doubt will happen, it will confirm that I am OR.
I have been pyschologically tortured when I was 6 which I believe has caused OSDD (Otherwise Specified Dissociative Disorder) but we don't have a diagnosis portal. I barely remember any of it but I do vaguely recall some.
Last night or this morning, I'm not sure, I had a night-terror that someone I don't know, a man, somehow paralised me and raped me, whilst holding a lighter as a threat. He asked me if I understood what was happening and I said yes.
I've had a few dreams like this before but none so stark, my brains just gone into auto-pilot and I feel dissociated from myself.
I don't know what to do, I'm sorry if this is not the appropriate sub-thread, I just feel violated and traumatised.
Thank you for your time, I would appreciate any feedback, OR.