A poem for a lot of people in my life

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  1. Wallflower
    AlpacaInATrenchcoat / Feb 19 2021 23.30

    The world is fading

    My heart is breaking

    I can’t cope.

    Nothing makes sense anymore.

    I scream

    I cry

    I want to walk out the door

    But my loyalty is keeping me indoors

    You may be my parents

    but I shouldn’t care less

    about myself because of who I am

    Maybe don’t try and stop me

    being myself

    so I won’t be as lonely

    because I just hide myself away

    and I’m not the one to blame

    I’m sorry I scarred myself

    but I couldn’t trust anyone else.

    Nobody ever listens to me crying out for help.

    I’m trying, I promise

    but nothing ever helps.

    Especially when you do all your little jokes.

    I’m sorry that I’m sensetive.

    I’m sorry I hate hate being touched.

    I’m sorry I hate noises.

    I‘m sorry I don’t eat much.

    I’m sorry I can’t concentrate

    I’m sorry I forget things

    I’m sorry for existing

    Is that what I’m supposed to say?

    That’s just who I am

    and you should see

    I’m fading oh so gradually.

    I’m just trying to be happy again.

    Finally be myself.

    But apparently that’s just too much to ask.

  2. Loser
    AlpacaInATrenchcoat / Feb 19 2021 23.30

    The world is fading

    My heart is breaking

    I can’t cope.

    Nothing makes sense anymore.

    I scream

    I cry

    I want to walk out the door

    But my loyalty is keeping me indoors

    You may be my parents

    but I shouldn’t care less

    about myself because of who I am

    Maybe don’t try and stop me

    being myself

    so I won’t be as lonely

    because I just hide myself away

    and I’m not the one to blame

    I’m sorry I scarred myself

    but I couldn’t trust anyone else.

    Nobody ever listens to me crying out for help.

    I’m trying, I promise

    but nothing ever helps.

    Especially when you do all your little jokes.

    I’m sorry that I’m sensetive.

    I’m sorry I hate hate being touched.

    I’m sorry I hate noises.

    I‘m sorry I don’t eat much.

    I’m sorry I can’t concentrate

    I’m sorry I forget things

    I’m sorry for existing

    Is that what I’m supposed to say?

    That’s just who I am

    and you should see

    I’m fading oh so gradually.

    I’m just trying to be happy again.

    Finally be myself.

    But apparently that’s just too much to ask.

    Unearthly / Sep 04 2021 23.09

    I'm sorry, I dont know if this is somethig I'm suppoused to reply too, but this really speaks to me; I cried while reading it.

    The feeling that the world is fading and my heart is breaking and that I can't cope but no one cares.

    I want to run away and leave it all behind SO BADLY, but my loyalty to my parents and family keeps me with them even though I hate it. I don't even know why I love them. They're my parents, but so what? If they don't love me thw way parents are suppoused to, then why should I? But I do, for some reason.

    I'm weird and I'm not normal; I hear voices and see things and I have huge holes in my memory and I don't remember given instructions even seconds after they're issued, and my parents are emmbarrased by me.

    I hide my body inder lauers and lauers because it makes me uncomfortable, like it's not my own. Nobody listens to me and I trust no one.

    But I'm trying, trying, trying my best, and yet it's never enough.

    I'm either too sensitive or too cold, loud noises scare me, I hate being touched. I can't concentrate on anything because of my butterfly mind.

    I wish I don't exist.

    I'm fading, fading, fading away, but no one notices.

    People fet mad at me because they think I act loke the world owes me something, and maybe, just maybe, it does.

    Maybe the world owes me my life back.

    Maybe it owes me happieness.

    ~ Loser.

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