look, this is a really weird post i know. i just genuinely would like some insight.
i am kind of scared of people who aren't white. i hate it so much. and i don't understand why i am this way. i'm a white guy and i live in a 99% white town. i can't really think of that many people who aren't white around my town aside from my ex-boyfriend and his family. i feel terrible about how i'm scared of non-white passing people. i haven't met a lot of non-white people and i'm still trying to use the correct terms (do i use poc? do i use bipoc? do i use bame?)
i'd like to know how to stop this. i feel super guilty about it and i really wish i was living in a more diverse town. my dad grew up in birmingham and essentially had all black friends so he's never had to struggle with this. i don't think my ma has struggled with this, but rather has struggled with racism against herself (i am half brummy half gypsy - the gypsy is on my ma's side, the brummy is on my dad's side of course) and so i don't think is racist towards.. i'm gonna use bame.
i do support blm and i do try my best to not be racist towards those who are bame but i think this is something that's really been implanted in my mind. it doesn't help that all of my idols are white and so i don't have any bame icons to look up to. i feel terrible about all of this and i just wish i wasn't like this.
how do i get over my irrational fear of people who aren't white passing?
thank you so much for answering this if you do. it means a lot.