hi, my name is Josh, im 14 and straight. if you are reading this then thank you in advance.
this might sound rediculus but i just feel so desperate to have a girlfriend, someone to care about and (as stupid as it sounds) to actually want me :/
i’ve been through some trouble when i was younger with my brother’s mental health so i‘m quite mature but a combination of that, my dyslexia that i’ve recently been diagnosed with and being a bit chubby i just tell myself that there is no way that i would ever be loved by a girl.
my friends have mostly all got a girlfriend and they take the piss sometimes, only jokingly, but i dont think that they realise that it hurts when they do.
i go to an all boys school so its 10x harder for me considering that i dont like to use instagram much or other social media platforms to post things other than art or music that i make.
i don’t personally think that i‘m a boring person, i do art and music (i’ve been playing the piano for 5 years and i play drums). i‘ve got a friend who is a girl who says that she would try and help me out but she doesnt really know many people at her school. she says im a nice person who would make a great boyfriend but i just dont have any self confidence.
if you’ve made it this far reading this, thank you and sorry for any spelling mistakes. please leave any advise or share any experiences. thanks again.