My name is Holly (not my real name for privacy reasons) and I would like to ask if what I am going through is physical abuse. I have an older brother (lets call him jim) and he is two years older than me (15) and has autism. Jim gets annoyed very easily due to his condition and would usually hit me in some way or throw something at me. He once made me punch myself and said "I didnt hit you this time." This made me cry. The worst injury that he has given me was when he once got annoyed at me and hit me on my leg three times in the same place with a microphone leaving a big dark bruise and it became swollen. This happened during lockdown. Him getting annoyed at me was always really a part of my life but it was the worst during lockdown since we couldnt get away from one another. I have told my parents but all they do is give him a telling of and thats the end of it. The worst experience was a few years ago now. Even though it was a few years ago i still remember it like it was yesterday. Jim got super annoyed at me and put a knife up to his own throat. It was one of the worst evenings of my life. I remember being on the floor in tears trying to tell him that it was a stupid thing to do and he put the knife away. Since it was whilst my parents were out for a bit my brother told me not to tell anyone and i only recently told my mum during lockdown. I held it in for ages. Also I would just really like to know if there is anyone else out there that has maybe gone through something similar. If so please reply to this telling me what has happened to you.