I am currently in Year 12 studying A Level Maths, History and Psychology. It's a lot. Especially now that during lockdown we have to basically teach ourselves the courses.
But I'm writing on this thread about the relationship between me and my mum. My dad suddenly passed away two years ago and my stepdad is not part of our lives anymore. My mum also had a stroke last year so I have been her primary carer whilst trying to keep my emotions and education balanced. It's already tough during lockdown but me and my mum both have such strong personalities so it is difficult living with her sometimes as she is serious all the time and I feel like I don't have much freedom, even when I say this to her she always replies as if she is trying to cause an argument with her. She blames it on work stress but I can't go and live with someone else either. She puts so much pressure on me ALL THE TIME I hate it I can't breathe most days. I'm an only child so I have to live up to my mum's great expectations. I don't know how to tell her I am depressed. I don't know how to explain that I still need a father figure or just someone else to talk to. I have lost so much weight during lockdown, I'm so unhealthy. She shouts all the time and I can't help but feel like a failure. I want to repeat Year 12 because of the lack of motivation I'm really far behind. Am I overreacting? Is anyone else finding home life and college difficult to balance?
Thank you, Anne