sorry if this seems super rambly my thoughts are in a mess I just need to get this of my chest. I've been sad/depressed for a while now but recently it's been getting worse and worse to the point where I want to end my life, well I'm not sure if I do or not, like suicide is all I can think about i literally spend hours a day thinking about it but I just can't bring myself to do it.i've had everything planned out for months but I just can't do it i don't know why. i don't think I actually want to die i just want all the pain to stop. i want to close my eyes and wake up when it's all over. I'm sick of feeling like shit all the time. I'm sick of people treating me like shit. I'm sick of the constant anxiety attacks. im sick of the self hatred. I'm just sick of life. i don't know how to cope anymore but I just can't do it. don't worry I just need to get my thoughts out.
thank you for reading 💙