
Hi Everyone,
I haven't been on Childline for a long time, but I've been feeling so terrible lately, I felt it was time to open this up again.
So... lockdown. Ugh. My school has been giving me so much work it is so difficult to keep up with it. And a lot of the time, I've had no motivation or willing to do it at all. I feel like my school life doesn't have any control any more. I'm procrastinating like crazy, and I've been feeling like it is a lot more difficult without the help of a teacher.
I've also been feeling a variety of emotions. I hate it when I feel sad, but lately I've not been feeling any emotion at all. It's horrible. Sometimes, I don't even want to talk to my friends, even though I know they're just being friendly. I've been feeling angry at everything and everyone at the moment, and it's horrible. I feel like I want to scream and break stuff but at the same time just sit down and cry quietly.
I've been worrying a lot too. My Grandad's got the Coronavirus, and it's been worrying me s much. He made quite a good recovery, but then he went downhill again. My Dad said that the chances of him getting better aren't looking good. This makes me so upset and worried. And with the added pressure to do all my school work and keep calm is just making everything worse.
Me and my sister have been fighting like mad. Physical and with words. I always manage to convince her that the things she's saying don't effect me, but in reality they do hurt. To be fair, I have been being mean t her too, which is horrible of me. I feel like everything right now is my fault.
I hope your all doing well. Does anyone have any advice on how to get my life sorted right now? Or how to manage through these times?
Thank you for reading,
E xx