so i have a fear...of atheists. I know how horrible i am and i honestly need to get over this. I know this is literally just another form of sectarianism and i hate myself for it. I would never let anyone in my life know about this because i am friends with atheists and one if my closest friends is an atheist. Im never uncomfortable around them its just when religion is brought up i will do almost anything to get us off the topic. I know there is no excuse for discrimination but i do know the reason i have this irrational fear of atheists. Its because of my uncle. He is an atheist and i was maybe 7, at that time i honestly didnt care about what religion people were as long as they were nice. But one day i was at my Grans and he was there and for some reason he was angry. He just shouted and told me that what i believed in was wrong and that there was nothing once i die. I had pretty bad anger issues then and so i shouted back at him (keep in mind im 7 at this point) and he lost it. I was in tears and just screaming. I cant remember what i was shouting at him but i was brought home by my mum and i just sat in my room and cried for the remainder of the day. Im 13 now and ive only spoke to him once since then.
this is all worse for me though because im bisexual and i always stand up against homophobes so im basically doing what theyre doing-which is horrible
if anyone has any advice on how to get over a fear like this, id appreciate it.