Hi,
so i am 17 years old Christmas is a hard time of the year for me because around about Christmas time my sister boyfriend sexually abused me twice and this year is the year my sister stopped me from seeing my nephew completely which my nephew was the reason why i kept fighting everything that i was going through then my mum and dad separated last year in the summer before i went into hospital ( im not in hospital anymore)so i haven't seen my brother and sisters much and this Christmas is going to be 2 years that i haven't spent Christmas with them so its hard and i feel like their so much pressure to be happy when your not and my mum is moving away which i dont really care about her moving as i never classed her as my mum cause of personal reasons but my sisters and brothers are going to be going with her which im scared like my life hasnt been great and i hate Christmas so much i cry as i dont know how to cope Sept from self harming and i dont want to let my family down all the time as its all i have been doing. then new years everyone always say its going to be a new year and this year is going to be your year but i thought 2019 was my year but it wasn't so i dont believe anything like this year is going to be your year when its not as i lost everything.
i know some of us on here might find Christmas time difficult for different reasons and you might feel so alone trust me i do as well i feel so lost and like theirs no one to turn to anymore.
