Lately I have been having a lot of problems concerning my home life including a lot of arguments and abuse from my parents. I have looked at different articles concerning the subject here and I would put what I am living through as neglect and mental abuse. Obviously as you can imagine it is very hard for me to live through this as I have been living in these conditions for the last 5 years (since I went from living with my mum in France to living with my dad and step-mum in England) starting when I was 11. I can easily hide my feelings normally but lately it has been getting harder and harder and it might sound pathetic but I feel as if my mental health is deteriorating as well? As a 16 year old girl I really am not the attention seeking type of person that diagnoses themselves after taking a quizz online but I keep feeling like my own thoughts and mind are out of my control and I am powerless especially at night. I have (and am) seriously considering taking myself to the doctors and book an appointment with my GP but I am very nervous my dad will find out as he is a regular patient going 3 times a week to the local doctors. Just the receptionist mentioning I came the day before after realising my dad and I have the same family name (my family name is very uncommon) would put me in A LOT of trouble. I just need to talk to someone who can actually do something about my situation but without my parents getting in trouble... They also do not believe in mental illness thinking it is just attention seeking which makes it much harder for me to talk about it (trust me I tried and they called me pathetic, useless, a b*tch etc...)
So yeah I really need advice - what should I do? Is it just me overreacting? Please be honest to me - I can handle it!