I was sexually abused as a child, it was online. I was forced by a man on the internet to preform multipal sexual acts, I was aware of what I was doing but I didn't want to. I only did them because he told me if I didn't, he'd kill my parents. He made me show him parts of my body on web cam and do other stuff, I started doing it more and more often because he said if you don't I'll send pictures of what you've done to your parents and hack your account and send them to all your friends. He forced me to do it, without a doubt, but I know a lot of people have had much worse things happen to them, and though I know this doesn't mean what happened to me wasn't still a life changing thing that shouldn't have happened but I constantly feel like I'm over reacting. I get flash backs, and I've been so ashamed of my body that I've had some really severe problems with self-harm that's put me in hospital more than once, but even then I feel like what happened to me wasn't bad enough to merit what it caused, or to merit the term sexual abuse.
Am I alone in this?
, and know there will always be help and support here at childline xx also if you are worried about flash backs/mental health there is a lot of support and help you can get by talking to people about how you are feeling
