The pain is deeply depressing and I have become sensitive and soar to the world, and boys. I try to strive through it everyday. Searching for inspiration to stay positive by looking for advise on how to get through this hard time. This is a hard time of a hard time as I confidently know that my warm bed will comfort my depression.
I seem to experience these frequent gloom emotions, which cast a sad shadow over me during my everyday leading me to walk around the house talking to myself about the sensitive experience. But's who's listening? Then shockingly realising I have lost my confidence and happiness within the safe but unsafe world but who knew that I could be so confident then BANG it be completley shattered by that one person. He made me feel it was my fault. I was in pain.
I've had my moments where the flow of tears have fallen upon strangers, who willingly stopped when they heard my cries. But who's wiping the tears away?
Sharing my fears with you that i worry everynight i will get depressed. That it will creep up inside and slowly consume me into sadness. From experiencing depression before I know eventually that it leads me to my self sadness and I always miss out.