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Hi there,
It sounds like youre feeling really low at the moment and are not sure what to do about this. I want to let you know that youve already have done something - youve written to me and told me how scared and alone youre feeling. It takes a lot of courage to talk about feelings. Well done for sharing this with me.
From what youve said, it sounds like youve been feeling low for a while and have nearly attempted suicide before. I'm concerned that youre thinking about suicide I wouldnt want you to kill yourself. I can see how worried you are about your suicidal thoughts too. It sounds like youre also anxious about self-harming and your eating problems. I have a sense that youre feeling really isolated with your difficulties at the moment and are not sure where to turn.
I can see how scary these feelings are for you but I believe that with the right support youll be able to overcome these overwhelming feelings. I can see that youd like to get some help but you said that you dont want to tell your family. I wonder if there is any other trusted adult that you feel you may want to talk to, such as a teacher or school counsellor. If it feels to hard to described your feelings out loud, maybe you could start by showing them this letter?
If theres no one that you feel comfortable talking to at the moment, you might want to think about going to your doctor, who should offer you support and advice. They may also be able to refer you to other sources of help, like local counselling services.
You can read a bit more in the Explore section about coping with feeling suicidal. There are also pages in Explore about self-harm and eating problems.
If you ever feel like you cant keep yourself safe from attempting suicide, please contact ChildLine straight away, because they would really want to listen to you and support you. Its also OK to ring 999 if you need immediate help.
Remember, you dont have to wait until crisis point to contact ChildLine. You can talk to one of the counsellors more generally about your feelings and explore some options for making changes. Its confidential unless they think your life is in immediate danger. You can phone ChildLine for free on 0800 1111 or have a 1-2-1 chat online.
Take care,
Sam
You can talk privately to a counsellor online or call 0800 1111 for free.
You can ask me about anything you want, there's nothing too big or small. I read every single letter but I can only answer a few each week. My replies are published here on my page.