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Suicide help, the only way out? :(

I would really appreciate help I'm scared and worried I have thought about suicide and nearly made attempts and once or twice made attempts I self harm sometimes and I sometimes don't eat at all or make myself sick after and I have had increasing thoughts I suicide and don't know what to do
I don't want to tell my family either so I Have no clue :'(
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Hi there,

It sounds like you’re feeling really low at the moment and are not sure what to do about this. I want to let you know that you’ve already have done something - you’ve written to me and told me how scared and alone you’re feeling. It takes a lot of courage to talk about feelings. Well done for sharing this with me.

From what you’ve said, it sounds like you’ve been feeling low for a while and have nearly attempted suicide before. I'm concerned that you’re thinking about suicide – I wouldn’t want you to kill yourself. I can see how worried you are about your suicidal thoughts too. It sounds like you’re also anxious about self-harming and your eating problems. I have a sense that you’re feeling really isolated with your difficulties at the moment and are not sure where to turn.

I can see how scary these feelings are for you but I believe that with the right support you’ll be able to overcome these overwhelming feelings. I can see that you’d like to get some help but you said that you don’t want to tell your family. I wonder if there is any other trusted adult that you feel you may want to talk to, such as a teacher or school counsellor. If it feels to hard to described your feelings out loud, maybe you could start by showing them this letter?

If there’s no one that you feel comfortable talking to at the moment, you might want to think about going to your doctor, who should offer you support and advice. They may also be able to refer you to other sources of help, like local counselling services.

You can read a bit more in the Explore section about coping with feeling suicidal. There are also pages in Explore about self-harm and eating problems.

If you ever feel like you can’t keep yourself safe from attempting suicide, please contact ChildLine straight away, because they would really want to listen to you and support you. It’s also OK to ring 999 if you need immediate help.

Remember, you don’t have to wait until crisis point to contact ChildLine. You can talk to one of the counsellors more generally about your feelings and explore some options for making changes. It’s confidential unless they think your life is in immediate danger. You can phone ChildLine for free on 0800 1111 or have a 1-2-1 chat online.

Take care,


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