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Hi,
Thank you for writing your letter to me. Youve been really open and honest with me and thats really brave.
I am very sorry to hear that your mum died. It can be so difficult to understand why these things happen and to know how to get through it. It sounds like youre feeling really confused and hurt and angry about your dad getting married again. Its absolutely okay to feel like that, but I also can hear how painful it is for you.
Youve told me that you hate your dads fiancée. I imagine that is a really tough way to feel, particularly if you have to spend a lot of time with her. The fact that your dad is getting married shouldnt mean that he is replacing your mum. No one in this world could do that, and no one should be trying to. Your mum will live on in your heart and your memories forever and no one can change that.
It seems like youre finding it hard to cope with all your angry feelings. I can hear that youre sorry for telling your dad that you hate him. Youve told me that your dad is heartbroken by what you said. That makes me think that he really loves you and cares about what you think. Maybe you could write a letter to your dad explaining how you are feeling? Sometimes talking about how you feel is really hard, but its often a helpful way of letting some of your feelings out. Remember, you are an important part of your family and your feelings should be listened to and respected.
If you dont feel you can talk to your dad at the moment, maybe you can try talking to an aunt or grandparent that you feel comfortable with. Maybe you could even talk to a favourite teacher, mentor or sports coach? Adults dont always have all the answers but they can still support you and help you get through a tough time.
Losing a parent is a really big thing to cope with, even for adults. Its ok to ask for support. You might like to check out winstonswish and the Explore page on When Someone Dies. Sometimes young people tell me they find it helpful to speak to a professional counsellor after bereavement. If you think it would help, your doctor or school might be able to arrange that for you.
You are also more than welcome to come and talk with a ChildLine counsellor, either on the phone by calling 0800 1111 or by logging in for a 1-2-1 chat.
Just remember that you dont have to go through all of this on your own.
Take care,
Sam
You can talk privately to a counsellor online or call 0800 1111 for free.
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