hi Sam , i am really depressed because my dad and sister live in england and whenever they come up to visit , obviously , they have to go back down again , but when they do i feel SO depressed . i do not know whether it is my hormones or that i really miss them , i know i miss them LOTS , its just i live in scotland with my grandma and grandpa , and they say if i REALLY REALLY REALLY want to live in england , then i should move . though they have both said " if you are unhappy , you should move , we will miss you like crazy , but you should ." sometimes i will just be doing my chores and suddenly i will see something reminding me of my dad or sister , and then i feel myself crying . i spend all my time in my room now and i just feel like i want to commit suicide ALL THE TIME !! HELP ME . c*
Sam
Hi there,
Thanks for your letter.
Firstly, I just want to talk to about you feeling so depressed that you spend a lot of time in your room and that you feel like you want to commit suicide all the time. Im concerned you feel like you want to end your life and it's important that you get some help and support with this feeling. Sometimes things become so hard for us that we feel the best thing to do is get away from everyone by doing things like staying in our room or spending time alone. For some people these feelings can become so strong that they start to think of suicide - it takes a lot of courage to share this and there is always help and support if you feel this way.
I can hear that the suicidal feelings have started because you feel really upset about living away from your dad and your sister and it is clear how much you miss them both. It is hard when we are far away from people who are important to us. You said that your not sure if its just your hormones it is completely natural to miss family when you dont get to see them as often as you like. It doesnt mean that those feelings are there just because of your hormones.
It sounds like youre not sure whether you want to move to England or not. One idea would be to write a list of the positive and negative things about moving. Once its all written down on paper it might help you to feel more confident about knowing what you really want. Again if you want to talk through these feelings with a counsellor at any time you'd be very welcome.
You do not have to live with these feelings on your own and many young people who have felt this way tell me that talking to someone they trust has helped. You have taken an important first step by sharing with me how you are feeling. If you are worried or dont feel able to tell anyone you can log on for a 1-2-1 chat and talk through with a counsellor how you can get help. If you ever feel like you might act on those feelings, please call for emergency help or ChildLine on 0800 1111.ChildLine will be here to listen whenever you need it.
You have been really brave reaching out for help and emailing me. Dont stop asking for that help and support, you dont have to go through these feelings and decisions alone.
Take care
Sam
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