I have been extremely sad for about two years and recently my mum took me to a specialist and it was diagnosed as depression. I don't talk to my family and feel very isolated as I also live in the country side away from my friends. My parents make me feel worthless and I seem to get strong thoughts about suicide daily, especially at night in bed. I just thought to tell someone because I found it helps quite a lot, as did the specialist.
I know you must get a lot of these email things, but thank you if you do manage to read this :)
Sam
Hi there,
Thank you for your letter telling me how you have been feeling.
You say that recently your mum took you to see a specialist and they diagnosed you with depression. Finding out what is wrong can be a challenging time but it can also help you to understand your feelings and be a chance to get the help you need.
I am concerned to hear that you have suicidal thoughts daily, especially at night and I want you know that if you ever feel unsafe because of your suicidal thoughts, feelings or actions, then its okay to get help by phoning ChildLine on 0800 1111 and telling them how you are feeling. There might be times when it is necessary to call 999 for the police and/or ambulance, I hope that would never be needed but it is important to know that help is available and how to get it.
From what you say it seems like you talked to the specialist about these suicidal thoughts and he encouraged you to tell someone about it. You've choosen to tell me about how you're feeling and I want to let you know its great that you found the courage to do this, especially as you say it helps you to talk about it. This is a big and important first step - at times like this it can help to remind yourself how open and courageous you have been when you're dealing with these difficult thoughts and feelings.
I want you to know that you can also talk to a counsellor at ChildLine whenever you would like to, especially at night which sounds like a particularly hard time for you - remember you do not have to deal with this alone. The ChildLine counsellors are always there for you and you can contact them by phone 0800 1111, 1-2-1 chat or by email.
The message boards are also a place where you can get support from other young people using the service and who are going through a similar situation to you.
You have done really well to try and get the help you need and I hope that you feel able to continue with this.
Take care,
Sam
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