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Im very ugly... :(

Im so ugly it hurts me to look in a mirror I put lodes of make up on every moring so i can feel prettyer but inside im dieing because im so ugly. Every one thinks im ugly to and i know they do. I whish i could start my life over again and look pretty like the other girls. I want to be pretty but im not my face is deformed because when i was younger i had boiling water spilt on my face and i had to have skin grafted on to my face from my back. I look like a compleat freak. I get pointed at in the streets and laughed at, i was once beaten up by a group of gils from my school because of my deformed face. I dont ever look any one in the eye and if i do i know they are looking at my face.

I struggle making friends so i normally sit alone at school and in a class room with no one in it. I feel deppressed and i have no real people to talk to. I want to die because im so ugly annd deformed.Why does the world have such a sick mind? Why do people play with my emotions.


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Hi there,

Thank you for writing to me and being so open about how you are feeling at the moment.

It sounds like you are having a really tough time and you told me that you feel really down about yourself and the way you look. I’m concerned to hear that it’s left you feeling like you want to die as your safety is really important. Is there anyone that you could trust to tell about how you are feeling to try and get some support? You can always talk to ChildLine about the feelings you are having and a counsellor will be able to listen to you and help you to explore how you are feeling.

It sounds like these negative feelings you have about yourself are leaving you feeling really depressed and low. It also sounds like the skin graft that you had has really affected you and made you feel as though you are different to other people. I get lots of letters from young people that feel different from others and feel upset about the way they look. Sometimes young people find it useful to visit the ChildLine message boards to post messages and talk to others experiencing similar feelings to them. There is a message board about self-esteem that you might like to look at.

You mentioned in your letter that people call you names and have beaten you up at school and I want to let you know that it isn’t ok for people to be doing this. It is bullying and your school will have an anti-bullying policy in place to protect people from bullies. If you feel in danger it is ok for you to call the police.

I’m wondering how you would feel about talking to an adult in school that you trust about what’s happening to get some help in getting the bullies to stop? You shouldn’t have to deal with people bullying you and you have a right to feel safe at school.

You have been really brave to start talking to me about how you are feeling and I hope that this reply is helpful. Remember if you want to talk some more ChildLine counsellors are always available to listen to you. You can call for free on 0800 1111, log on for a 1-2-1 chat or send an email.

Take care,


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