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Hi there,
Thank you for telling me about what has been happening as I can hear how much worry its causing you.
From what youve described you are drinking too much alcohol and I know its very tempting for young people to drink when underage, but the law is there to protect them from the dangers of using alcohol. These dangers include causing direct harm to your body (e.g. alcohol poisoning, liver damage) and getting into unsafe situations because your thinking and judgment isnt clear and you are not able to control you mind or body as well as you normally do. If you havent already seen it, the Explore section has information on Alcohol use as does Talk to Frank, which gives information of the effect and related risks of alcohol.
Often when people use drugs or alcohol it is a way of them avoiding or trying to deal with something thats going on or happened to them. It is important to know that alcohol does not provide a solution and in many cases makes things worse. You may find it helpful to think about the first time you drank alcohol, or a lot of it, and if anything happened which may have caused you to want to start drinking alcohol. Some people find that dealing with a separate issue which is bothering them can help to explain and reduce or completely stop their drinking.
It sounds like you want to stop drinking because of the affect it has on you and it's important you know there is support available for you, to help you stop. You can speak to your doctor explaining how much you have been drinking; you could also talk to your school counsellor or nurse, if they have one and they would be able to support you through this too.
You mentioned that boys have been taking advantage of you, there is a link between sex and alcohol which the brook website talks about in more detail. If youre putting yourself in risky situation its important to think about how you can minimise the risk to your safety and well-being. This can include not being left alone with any boys or using contraception if youre going to have sex.
If you want to talk more in confidence about what is going on, you can always talk to one of the ChildLine counsellors by phone (a free call) or by logging in for a 1-2-1 chat. The counsellor could talk through your options and explore how its making you feel, which could help you to feel less alone with this problem.
Take care,
Sam
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