Hi there,
It can be hard to think about losing someone we love and its natural to feel scared about them dying. Death is one part of life and although its hard to think about, coming to terms with it can mean we enjoy the time we do have all the more.
Everyone deals with death differently and theres no right or wrong way to think about it. We can spend a lot of time thinking about what its going to be like when someone dies, while forgetting that they are still with us now.
Just because someone is old it doesnt mean that they are going to die soon as people live to all different ages. In the same way, unfortunately someone being young doesnt mean they will live to an old age. Nobody knows what the future holds and this is a fact that can be hard to face.
If you try and focus on the here and now you may have a lot longer than you think with her, but still make as much use of that time as you can - you can create memories with your nan that last long after shes gone. Find things to do with her, talk with her and find out her stories. You cant go back and do that once shes gone, whenever that may be.
You might want to talk to a ChildLine counsellor about how you feel. They are there to listen to you and support you.
I hope that helps.
Sam
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