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  • sparkles23

    12 December 2011 at 20:29

     

    Karlie <3

    I think you are so beautiful and amazing for staying so strong! You are an inspiration! :) Don't be afraid. Just take it one day at a time and create some beautiful, special memories with your family and friends. Everything will be ok. It won't hurt, it'll be ok. My friend passed away in February from leukaemia. Everyone is sad she is gone in flesh but she is never truly gone. We'll always remember her just the same as will be for you and she will be watching over us. Don't be afraid to cry. It's probably good to cry if you are feeling sad and let out all the emotions instead of bottling it up. I am always here if you want to talk. I'm sure we all are. We're like one big family! Have an amazing christmas!

    Lots and lots of love! Sparkles23 xxxxxx

  • Blonde114

    13 December 2011 at 18:53

     

     My mum has Breast Cancer and she had to have chemotherapy. Personally, I don't think that people trully understand what it is like to have cancer in the family. It is very stressful and it is quite tough to deal with. You have to get used to goingto the hospital lots and having tests, and also seeing someone else suffer. Thats the worst part of it.

  • SilverMoonLight

    14 December 2011 at 07:43

     

     SILVER; MASSIVE HUG AND SQUEEZE BACK!!!!!yeah i agree, although being positive is really hard when i know what the outcome is going to b, it does really help to make me feel like im making the most of the moments i do have. some people dont even get this long with there familys or never get the chance to tell important people how much they love them...ive got that chance and im trying to take it :)i am really scared and i feel like i spend way too much time crying, its helped tlking to the nurse but at the end of the day i dnt think i can do anything but b a little bit sad and scared coz unfortunatley nothing is going to change whats going to happen. Thanku once again for replying, u truly do help me not to feel so alone! its so nice to see a reply from u!
    love u loads and loads and more massive cuddles heading straight to u xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

    heyya huni x 
    firstly, can i just say sorry for the l8 repply, computers are hard to come by atm x

    well, im really glad ur making the most of ur time x how r thiings atm? hope ur feeling a little better! and dont worrie about cryinng. u can t change whats gonna happen, but its gonna happen to us all and we cant fix it up either :/ nature fails at that one eh x so what have u been up to then? nice to have a convosation to take your mind off things i think x seen anythink good on the tellie? learnt somthing interesting?  or anything else u wanna talk about? 
    REALLY hope ur feeling gd, ur in my prayers x gd luck huni, im know ur beautiful and strong and u can make this count! love u lotts like jelly totts x

    TakeCare
    Silver MoonLight Xx
     

     

     

     

  • Charlie7407

    14 December 2011 at 20:13

     
    Karlie07 - 10 December 2011 at 01:16

     

    Hi!

    firstly thanku sooooooooooo much for replying to me. you have no idea what it means to me!!!!!! sorry its taken me a little while to write back, i got taken into hospital again in the early hours of tuesday morning coz i had trouble breathing and was in lots of pain, i got taken to intensive care and got really scared coz i thought 'it' was going to happen. but it didnt :) i got given a special mask to help me breathe (its even noiser that the oxygen) and got given lots of medicine to help the pain. things are a little bit better now and im on a normal ward again. the pain is still bad but the medicine keeps making me sleepy which helps me rest but it just hurts if i move to much. ive been asleep all day and now again that its nighttime my eyes dont want to close...rubbish!am trying to b a bit more positive tho as i thort that was it on tues...but it wasnt so i shld just b thankful that i have got even more time with all the people around me! Thankyou so very much for replying to me, its been so nice to see people have writtenback. it stops the boredom, distracts me and most of all it stops me from feeling so lonely, so from all of my heart thanku thanku thanku!!! xxxx

    HI FIVE; thanku for ur msg, it really means a lot. i hope u are ok. sending u lots of love xxxxxxx

    SILVER; MASSIVE HUG AND SQUEEZE BACK!!!!!yeah i agree, although being positive is really hard when i know what the outcome is going to b, it does really help to make me feel like im making the most of the moments i do have. some people dont even get this long with there familys or never get the chance to tell important people how much they love them...ive got that chance and im trying to take it :)i am really scared and i feel like i spend way too much time crying, its helped tlking to the nurse but at the end of the day i dnt think i can do anything but b a little bit sad and scared coz unfortunatley nothing is going to change whats going to happen. Thanku once again for replying, u truly do help me not to feel so alone! its so nice to see a reply from u!
    love u loads and loads and more massive cuddles heading straight to u xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

    KIZ; im so very sorry to hear what u have been thru, u sound amazing to have coped with all of that. massive inspiration. unfortunatley the cancer is definatlety progressed so far that there will only b one outcome but i am trying very hard to stay positve and enjoy each day to the full, even if somedays it means that all i can achieve is brushing my teeth and changing in to clean pjs i think its better than nothing?! havew u done lots of things on that list that u wanted to do? i cant do lots of the things on my list now but me and my big sisters sat and talked about them this evening as if we had done them, it was fun! i said how i wanted to go to the beach (but its far to cold now and we cant take the oxygen on long journeys) so my sister brought me in a little pot of sand, when im up to it we are goiing to find some music with waves on and then put sand on our feet so it feels like we r there...i think we will just end up getting very messy! oopps! but it sounds fun too. thanku for all ur lovely words, i hope that when the time comes everything is right and that people do remember happy things not just sad things. more than i want to get better ( which i wish i cld so veryh much) i want my family to b happy. that wld mean so much to me. thanku for really understanding me, it feels like very few people do, but i guess not many people as young as us face the fear of death. scary hey!thanku again and thanku for being so inspirational., ur so very brave xxxxx

    CHARLIE; Hello my lovely, thanku for replying :) yeah it suchs having a chest infection and it is really scary that its sped everything up, i just feel really poorly, but i am just trying to enjoy each day as much as i can, and i do realise im fortunate enough im even here for a tiny bit longer, so many people dnt even get the time ive already had! i do feel better than i did yesterday but guess im feeling worse than a week ago which sucks, i am still fighting and its just made me want to fight harder, i realise i cant beat it but i just want each day to mean something not just sit and wait to go. im not sure about what ur doctor said, im in pain all the time, i guess its better when i dnt think about it but its defo stilll there! if that really worked then no1 wld ever feel pain ...right?however its a lot more fun smiling than being sad even if it does take more effort! i love that jessie J song sooooo much! i think its amazing, i love the words, seeing is decieving, dreaming is believing! i love it!!!! thanku for reminding me of it, im going to listen to it on my ipod in a min to try and think of nice things! what other songs do u like? do u watch the xfactor? i hope i can watch it tomoz but i will prob fall asleep! yeah the list is nice and safe, ive given it to my oldest sister and shes going to look after it. that sounds like such a cool idea about ur mum doing a skydive, my mum and dad always wanted to do a hot air ballon ride, dad booked one but i was too poorly for them to go so mayb they cld do it when im not hear.i like to think that il b in the clouds some day and i willl just b floating past them, i think thats how i want to think of it anyway.it sounds less scary that way! i find it really ard to let anybody leave at the moment coz i get scared it willl b the last time or i will die on my own, but thats a really nice thing about making sure u say something really nice before bed!!! :) my mummy always says 'nighty night shirts' before bed-i like that i think i will have a party if we can arrange it, i want to dress up nice and things, it wld b really fun.even if im tired i could still b around everyone and know they r there! that wld b the best bit. just hate making everyone sad, wld have to just make sure we had lots of happy music on!! :) hehhe and definatley a bit of jessie j. im sorry to hear ur ill alot. have u been ill for a long time, that anxierty disorder sounds really nasty, my sister had a panic attack once and that was bad enough. ur illness sounds horrible but im so glad uve come on here coz it means ive got to chat to u..which i think is sooo great! :) (coz ur great!) thanks again so much for writing back,its so lovely to hear from u and it does make me feel so much less lonely. it really really does! sending u a massive cuddle. lots of love xxx

    NINA; so sorry to hear about ur friend. how did u cope? did anything she say or do make things easier or harder for u? i just want to know whats best for my friends and family. u sound very brave and i hope ur ok. i do hope that i just fall asleep and i have my family there but its really scary to think about too. trying to stay positive. i hope ur ok, thanku for replying. lots of love and ur friend is in my prayers xxxx

    To all of u, sorry about my essay of a letter but i get so bored at nightime it just seemed like the best thing to do. thanku so much for replying, u truly have no idea how very grateful i am. so much love to all of u, stay nice and toasty! lots of love and hugs, K xxxx

     

    Hello there Karlie!

    I'm so sorry you got taken back into hospital :( At  least they have been able to help you with the pain. I really do hope your coping ok?

    I'm really proud of you for thinking positive well done! thats a massive step keep it up and you'll feel much better :)

    You keep fighting it because you are strong and the more hope you have of getting better the better it will feel even if you don't get better at least you tried :) I feel exactly the same way about the doctor haha i thought it was just me, maybe the doctor has magic powers that make him not feel pain so he thinks everyone else cant :P i don't know but i'm with you on this one ;) Those are my favourite words in the song too! Its a really nice song isn't it? I like lots of songs honestlt the list is never ending, i dont have a particular gendre of music either i like bits of everything :) I sure do watch the Xfactor do you? Have you found out who won? :) Gosh! my reply is so late, so sorry all the computers in the house are broke its hard for me to get on a computer. Maybe you could make a memory box for your sister too and put it in there? Just a suggestion you don't have to do it. That would be amazing ask them to do that its nice thought to think they would float past. I thionk the party is a great idea it gets everyone together you could dress up in something you have liked for ages!

    Yeah i have been ill for a bit now i'm having tests done and stuff still waiting for a scan date though :S wow its taking ages! My counsellor thinks its just to do with really bad anxiety. I think it is to be honest though as I skipped a 2 hour and a half exam on monday on pupose on the spur of the momnet thing and i was in the toilets and I was extremly ill from the worry :/ I'm glad i came on here too how long have you been on for? Your absolutly amazing too! Your so nice to talk to you really do make my day :D Could i ask you something? Does anyone know you come on here like your sister? Sending you a massive cuddle back!

    Lots of love and take care! Charlie7407  xxx

  • WinterIce

    16 December 2011 at 20:29

     

     Karlie, keep fighting. 

    You are an amazing girl and really strong. You are an inspiration to me. You are being so brave and taking this in your stride. You are a fighter.

    You will be in my thoughts. I will be thinking of you. And hoping that you do not suffer any pain in the coming weeks and months. 

    I hope you get to do the things you want to. I hope you have a really lovely Christmas. And I hope that your time here will be truly magical. 

    Keep strong no matter what. And please never ever lose your hope. 

    You are a special girl and you will never be forgotten. Never ever!

    Much Love xx

  • onedayatatime

    17 December 2011 at 01:02

     

     you are SO brave. xxxx

  • Karlie07

    17 December 2011 at 18:56

     

     H

    sorry its taken ages to write back, ive been a bit porly again but feeling a bit better now. im still in hospital but my pain is a little bit more under control now which is good :) Started writing this message this morning but then as per usual i fell asleep after a few mins and somebody must of put the laptop away when they were tucking me up. i hadnt saved the message and id written LOADS! so annoying but nevermind. Been really poorly the last few days and asleep most of the time, todays the first day i have really been with it and the ward looks like Santas grotto, its really cool, theres loads of fake snow and 3 christmas trees. theres a day room with a kitchen and tv and stuff and the tree in there is enormous! is quite cool. I hope everybody is well and looking forward to christmas! thankyou again so much for ur messages, they mean sooooo much to me and i look forward to reading them so much! Thankyou x

    THIS IS THE LIFE; Hey hun,pls dont feel sad for me. i know its a little bit sad but i guess im really lucky that i know when im guna go (or kinda when anyway) I am really terrified of it but i guess as well that i get to make sure that everyone knows how much i love them and also to make as many memories as i can for the people that i will leave.it is scary but so many people never ever get that chance, im just trying to reach out for the positives! I really dont feel like im being brave at all, i  cry at least everyday and im so frightened to go to sleep - even tho thats what i do most of the time! Heeehe, i dont think my story is anything courageous...it just sucks a bit! i have been writing a diary since i was diagnosed, it started off so i could write down any questions i thought of for the doctors and nurses but now it just has a lot of moaning in it (and a few funny stories about my sisters and other stuff like being in hospital and friends ive made!) thanku for saying all those lovely things about me...but they rnt really that true. im just normal i think :) am guna try to have a good christmas and not sleep thru all of it!! i hope u do too thanku again for writing,it means ever so much. love you xxxx

    REE REE;thanks for replying, im guna try not to b scared of death..but its really hard! Am in quite alot of pain at the moment so i get worried that its guna hurt more soon but the doctors and nurses are doing there best.i cry loads and i hate it but ur right people dnt seem to mind.me and my sisters watched loads of soppy movies the other day just so it seemed like there was a point to crying..it was fun but i slept thru most of the films! oops!i hope my family do realise i will always b in their hearts, thats where i wan2 b and see them all smiling :) il try and have the best christmas! thanks. i hope u do too!! xxxx

    NINA; Hello! thanku for replying again, so lovely to hear from u! im so sorry once agian about ur friend but so glad to hear ur starting to get thru it.i cant imagine hoew u must of felt but u sound so brave! im asleep lots of the time so my days are quite quick but i feel so sorry for my friends and family who spend all day here at the hospital,only for me to be sleeping! how rude hey!

    id like to think thaat il be up in the sky somewhere, my sister said that she thinks of me becoming the angel we put on top of our christmas tree every year! i like that :) i love christmas and so think thats quite fun.maybe u could think of ur friend each time u look at whatevers on the top of ur christmas tree? im glad to hear ur ok now, im sorry its not always the way but im sure she would b sooooo proud if u. thanku for helping me by talking to me, it means so much to talk to someone that has been thru what my family is going thru now....im just sorry it means u have lost somebody :( will try to stay strong...just wish theyd sort out my pain and then i wld b more free to do fun stuff! nevermind!!! have a great christmas, my prayers are with u,your friend and her family xxxxx

    SPARKLES; thanku for saying that...but i really dont feel either beautiful or strong!!! my eyes look ive been punched at the moment coz ive been rubbing them but becoz my skin is so delicate right now coz my blood is all infected and nasty ive got two black bruises around my eyes! not cool. also my skin is so sensitive right now i cant wear my wig so i definatley am not looking beautiful or amazing! and strong is the total opposite of how im feel hehhee! i feel like a 100 years old, all frail and granny like and i cry at everything! oops! am trying to create memories with friends and family but im so damn tired all the time and got no energy so it is a little limited! never mind tho weve done lots and lots together b4 i was poorly anyway!  I am so terribly sorry to hear about ur friend! Leukaemia is soooooo rubbish! grrrr! im positive tho she will b looking down and be super super proud of u! think of her often and think of her with a smile...coz thats what i want people to do wheb im not here! thanks for chatting to me...it is so nice on childline to b party of a family...it cheers me up so much hearing from u lot! it really does. big cuddles and lots of love xxxx

    BLONDE; hey hun, so sorry to hear about ur mum :( that sooo rubbish! Has her chemo stopped now? how is she doing? I had no idea what it was going to b like to go thru cancer and treatment and to be really honest i think i have had the easiest time. everyone is always worrying about me, looking after me, making me comfy, buying me lovely presents. its my family that i worry about the most coz it is so stressful.sometimes i get sick or shout coz im in pain and i know how hard my family find it being really helpless.i think ur sooo amazing and if i can ever answer any of ur questions (tho i rpob wouldnt b able to!) then pls ask, i will try and also im in hosp so cld ask someone for u! i really hope ur mummy gets better soon. praying for u, ur mum and ur family. lots of love xxxx

    SILVER;Hi Silver, thanks for replying. love hearing from u so very much. had a bad week so not been up to much which is a bit rubbish but been in bed lots of the time -still been chatting and watching films with my sisters tho when i can, must b very boring for them but its nice for me to hear about whats going on outside of my bed!!! yeah nature isnt so great at this one is it? just get so frightened when the pain gets worse or my breathing goes funny that is going to happen then. so scary! but they ho...it still hasnt :)  havent really been up to much coz have felt so poorly but did watch some good films at times, lots of disney classices...i love them all but especially lion king. we went to see the stage show last year.....its amazing! also i love the circle of life song coz it helps me not to be so scared about everything :) also ive watched catch up of xfactor coz i missed it coz i was really poorly on sunday! im so glad they won!! Yay.next week we some famous people r meant to b coming in to hospital (everytime i try to mention who it is tho my msg gets rejected so i have to leave u guessing!( hehhee. Really hope my skin feels alright that i can wear my wig for a little bit and have some nice pictures taken - got to try and stay awake too (note to self!)  love havinbg conversations with u but ive not got much chat coz i dnt do much! how about u? what have u been up to? thanku sooooo much for chatting to me. I LOVE IT!! ....love YOU! too! very very much! xxxx

    CHARLIE; hello my lovely!!!! how ru? hopsital isnt too bad but still feeling quite rubbish! :( just more annoying than anything and the pain is a bit nasty! but otherwise its kind of nice to b with the people i know here like the other patients and ataff and stuff.ive got a different bed space now to the one ive always had and its really strange...quite nice tho too! ive put loads of pictures and photos up all around my bed so when im really scared i just look at them all. it does help a bit. ive been listening to that jessie j song almost non stop too.i love it so much! i also really like the song thats on one of this years xmas adverts its called please please please let me get what i want..its sung by someone called slow moving millie...yesterday me and my sister listened to it loads and she fell asleep with me during the middle of the day in my bed with me! it was fun coz i felt like i was at home all safe in her bed :)!!

    Yeah i am trying to keep positive, just annoyed at myself for always being tired coz it means i dnt get to do lots...but im just trying my best to do all that i can! thanks for keeping my spirits up, its def best to think positve, coz otherwise u just end up feeling rubbish! I think mayb the doctor must have have magic powers that make him not feel pain! mayb there is a harry potter spell u could do to help with theat? hehhe?!! i think hes just being rubbish myself...could u go to a different doctor? i  really hope u stsart to feel better soon!

    Yeah i did catch up with xfactor, are you plesaed they won? what other tv do u watch? do u like harry potter? and or the twilight films? i do but still havent seen the newset twilight coz i been too poorly. me and my sisters r going to try to watch all of the harry potter in order over the next few day! i cant wait it will b great. i wanted to start reading them all agaibn but i just get too tired! much easier to watch films! Lazy i know|!!!! dont know if u read what i wrote to Silver but hopefully we are having some celebs in to the hosp next week for xmas - really excited :) hope to b well enuf to enjoy it - scrap that I WILL BE!!

    Yeah ive been writing a diary for a long time now so im going to kinda give that to my sisters when im not here anymore, plus all my photos that are stuck up over my walls here! my eldest sister has got a pin board on her bedroom door and it is covered with stuff me and my other sister have done with her, its got like random reciepts for thing and tickets and everything its great! we are deffo going to have a party as soon as im out of hospital. our church have said we can have it in their hall so that will b good. i dont know what i will wear but i want to get something really nice and for once not be too worried about all my scars from my lines. theres nothing i can do to get rid of them and if i didnt have them then i might not be here right now...so i guess i shld try and treasure them and b proud!

    So sorry to hear uve been ill for a while, that sucks, especially if ur still not sure what it is! sorry to hear about u being so ill after u missed the exam.will u still have to do it? im thinking of u loads! wish i could make it all better for u! so much! your just so lovely charlie! ive been on here for almost a year, not really written on message boards a whole lot but found it helpful to tlk to people on 121 chat. how about u? do u phone or chat to childline? im soooo glad i have met u! i think ur great! both my sisters now know i come on here coz i told them a few weeks ago when i got my bad news and they said mayb it was a good idea to tlk to someone. they have made it a rule not to look at what i put tho so that i can say what i want without worrying itf they will see it. how come u ask~? does ne1 know ur on here? thanku again so much charlie for chatting to me! lots of love and big big hug xxx

    WINTER ICE; im trying to keep up the fight, not sure if im still winning tho, but im deffo still fighting. im glad im an inspiration to u, but i struggle to know what for! im really not being brave, i moan all of the time and make such a fuss, plus i constantly cry, i promise im not brave, just simply contiuing to live for the meantime!...nothing brave about that i assure u!! thanku ever so much for those lovely lovely kind words, theyve made me teary see here i go again!) i cant believe the lovely things people can say! thanks ...u have truly touched me! i hope u have a wonderful christmas that is as special as u are! lots of love xxx p.s. i will never ever forgot u or those words u have just written! xxx

    ONEDAYATATIME;thanku...but i promise u, im really not. just not got any choice in the matter. i hope ur ok xxxxx

    To everyone... thanku again, u have no idea what a difference it makes to my day to see a reply! I truly truly appreciate it! i pirmise il always write back, just takes me sometime to feel well enough at times! Thanku again and sending each and everyone of u so much love and cuddles

    All my love, Karlie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

    ps.sorry for the essay again...i was bored can u tell? pls dnt feel u have to reply a long msg...or even reply at all! just i have lots of time on my hands it would appear now its 1:38 am!! xxxxx

    pps - it was 1.38 am but have had to try and resend this post coz it got rejected. so annoying. lots of love to u all xxx

     

  • essexgirl818

    17 December 2011 at 19:50

     
    Karlie07 - Today at 18:56

     

     H

    sorry its taken ages to write back, ive been a bit porly again but feeling a bit better now. im still in hospital but my pain is a little bit more under control now which is good :) Started writing this message this morning but then as per usual i fell asleep after a few mins and somebody must of put the laptop away when they were tucking me up. i hadnt saved the message and id written LOADS! so annoying but nevermind. Been really poorly the last few days and asleep most of the time, todays the first day i have really been with it and the ward looks like Santas grotto, its really cool, theres loads of fake snow and 3 christmas trees. theres a day room with a kitchen and tv and stuff and the tree in there is enormous! is quite cool. I hope everybody is well and looking forward to christmas! thankyou again so much for ur messages, they mean sooooo much to me and i look forward to reading them so much! Thankyou x

    THIS IS THE LIFE; Hey hun,pls dont feel sad for me. i know its a little bit sad but i guess im really lucky that i know when im guna go (or kinda when anyway) I am really terrified of it but i guess as well that i get to make sure that everyone knows how much i love them and also to make as many memories as i can for the people that i will leave.it is scary but so many people never ever get that chance, im just trying to reach out for the positives! I really dont feel like im being brave at all, i  cry at least everyday and im so frightened to go to sleep - even tho thats what i do most of the time! Heeehe, i dont think my story is anything courageous...it just sucks a bit! i have been writing a diary since i was diagnosed, it started off so i could write down any questions i thought of for the doctors and nurses but now it just has a lot of moaning in it (and a few funny stories about my sisters and other stuff like being in hospital and friends ive made!) thanku for saying all those lovely things about me...but they rnt really that true. im just normal i think :) am guna try to have a good christmas and not sleep thru all of it!! i hope u do too thanku again for writing,it means ever so much. love you xxxx

    REE REE;thanks for replying, im guna try not to b scared of death..but its really hard! Am in quite alot of pain at the moment so i get worried that its guna hurt more soon but the doctors and nurses are doing there best.i cry loads and i hate it but ur right people dnt seem to mind.me and my sisters watched loads of soppy movies the other day just so it seemed like there was a point to crying..it was fun but i slept thru most of the films! oops!i hope my family do realise i will always b in their hearts, thats where i wan2 b and see them all smiling :) il try and have the best christmas! thanks. i hope u do too!! xxxx

    NINA; Hello! thanku for replying again, so lovely to hear from u! im so sorry once agian about ur friend but so glad to hear ur starting to get thru it.i cant imagine hoew u must of felt but u sound so brave! im asleep lots of the time so my days are quite quick but i feel so sorry for my friends and family who spend all day here at the hospital,only for me to be sleeping! how rude hey!

    id like to think thaat il be up in the sky somewhere, my sister said that she thinks of me becoming the angel we put on top of our christmas tree every year! i like that :) i love christmas and so think thats quite fun.maybe u could think of ur friend each time u look at whatevers on the top of ur christmas tree? im glad to hear ur ok now, im sorry its not always the way but im sure she would b sooooo proud if u. thanku for helping me by talking to me, it means so much to talk to someone that has been thru what my family is going thru now....im just sorry it means u have lost somebody :( will try to stay strong...just wish theyd sort out my pain and then i wld b more free to do fun stuff! nevermind!!! have a great christmas, my prayers are with u,your friend and her family xxxxx

    SPARKLES; thanku for saying that...but i really dont feel either beautiful or strong!!! my eyes look ive been punched at the moment coz ive been rubbing them but becoz my skin is so delicate right now coz my blood is all infected and nasty ive got two black bruises around my eyes! not cool. also my skin is so sensitive right now i cant wear my wig so i definatley am not looking beautiful or amazing! and strong is the total opposite of how im feel hehhee! i feel like a 100 years old, all frail and granny like and i cry at everything! oops! am trying to create memories with friends and family but im so damn tired all the time and got no energy so it is a little limited! never mind tho weve done lots and lots together b4 i was poorly anyway!  I am so terribly sorry to hear about ur friend! Leukaemia is soooooo rubbish! grrrr! im positive tho she will b looking down and be super super proud of u! think of her often and think of her with a smile...coz thats what i want people to do wheb im not here! thanks for chatting to me...it is so nice on childline to b party of a family...it cheers me up so much hearing from u lot! it really does. big cuddles and lots of love xxxx

    BLONDE; hey hun, so sorry to hear about ur mum :( that sooo rubbish! Has her chemo stopped now? how is she doing? I had no idea what it was going to b like to go thru cancer and treatment and to be really honest i think i have had the easiest time. everyone is always worrying about me, looking after me, making me comfy, buying me lovely presents. its my family that i worry about the most coz it is so stressful.sometimes i get sick or shout coz im in pain and i know how hard my family find it being really helpless.i think ur sooo amazing and if i can ever answer any of ur questions (tho i rpob wouldnt b able to!) then pls ask, i will try and also im in hosp so cld ask someone for u! i really hope ur mummy gets better soon. praying for u, ur mum and ur family. lots of love xxxx

    SILVER;Hi Silver, thanks for replying. love hearing from u so very much. had a bad week so not been up to much which is a bit rubbish but been in bed lots of the time -still been chatting and watching films with my sisters tho when i can, must b very boring for them but its nice for me to hear about whats going on outside of my bed!!! yeah nature isnt so great at this one is it? just get so frightened when the pain gets worse or my breathing goes funny that is going to happen then. so scary! but they ho...it still hasnt :)  havent really been up to much coz have felt so poorly but did watch some good films at times, lots of disney classices...i love them all but especially lion king. we went to see the stage show last year.....its amazing! also i love the circle of life song coz it helps me not to be so scared about everything :) also ive watched catch up of xfactor coz i missed it coz i was really poorly on sunday! im so glad they won!! Yay.next week we some famous people r meant to b coming in to hospital (everytime i try to mention who it is tho my msg gets rejected so i have to leave u guessing!( hehhee. Really hope my skin feels alright that i can wear my wig for a little bit and have some nice pictures taken - got to try and stay awake too (note to self!)  love havinbg conversations with u but ive not got much chat coz i dnt do much! how about u? what have u been up to? thanku sooooo much for chatting to me. I LOVE IT!! ....love YOU! too! very very much! xxxx

    CHARLIE; hello my lovely!!!! how ru? hopsital isnt too bad but still feeling quite rubbish! :( just more annoying than anything and the pain is a bit nasty! but otherwise its kind of nice to b with the people i know here like the other patients and ataff and stuff.ive got a different bed space now to the one ive always had and its really strange...quite nice tho too! ive put loads of pictures and photos up all around my bed so when im really scared i just look at them all. it does help a bit. ive been listening to that jessie j song almost non stop too.i love it so much! i also really like the song thats on one of this years xmas adverts its called please please please let me get what i want..its sung by someone called slow moving millie...yesterday me and my sister listened to it loads and she fell asleep with me during the middle of the day in my bed with me! it was fun coz i felt like i was at home all safe in her bed :)!!

    Yeah i am trying to keep positive, just annoyed at myself for always being tired coz it means i dnt get to do lots...but im just trying my best to do all that i can! thanks for keeping my spirits up, its def best to think positve, coz otherwise u just end up feeling rubbish! I think mayb the doctor must have have magic powers that make him not feel pain! mayb there is a harry potter spell u could do to help with theat? hehhe?!! i think hes just being rubbish myself...could u go to a different doctor? i  really hope u stsart to feel better soon!

    Yeah i did catch up with xfactor, are you plesaed they won? what other tv do u watch? do u like harry potter? and or the twilight films? i do but still havent seen the newset twilight coz i been too poorly. me and my sisters r going to try to watch all of the harry potter in order over the next few day! i cant wait it will b great. i wanted to start reading them all agaibn but i just get too tired! much easier to watch films! Lazy i know|!!!! dont know if u read what i wrote to Silver but hopefully we are having some celebs in to the hosp next week for xmas - really excited :) hope to b well enuf to enjoy it - scrap that I WILL BE!!

    Yeah ive been writing a diary for a long time now so im going to kinda give that to my sisters when im not here anymore, plus all my photos that are stuck up over my walls here! my eldest sister has got a pin board on her bedroom door and it is covered with stuff me and my other sister have done with her, its got like random reciepts for thing and tickets and everything its great! we are deffo going to have a party as soon as im out of hospital. our church have said we can have it in their hall so that will b good. i dont know what i will wear but i want to get something really nice and for once not be too worried about all my scars from my lines. theres nothing i can do to get rid of them and if i didnt have them then i might not be here right now...so i guess i shld try and treasure them and b proud!

    So sorry to hear uve been ill for a while, that sucks, especially if ur still not sure what it is! sorry to hear about u being so ill after u missed the exam.will u still have to do it? im thinking of u loads! wish i could make it all better for u! so much! your just so lovely charlie! ive been on here for almost a year, not really written on message boards a whole lot but found it helpful to tlk to people on 121 chat. how about u? do u phone or chat to childline? im soooo glad i have met u! i think ur great! both my sisters now know i come on here coz i told them a few weeks ago when i got my bad news and they said mayb it was a good idea to tlk to someone. they have made it a rule not to look at what i put tho so that i can say what i want without worrying itf they will see it. how come u ask~? does ne1 know ur on here? thanku again so much charlie for chatting to me! lots of love and big big hug xxx

    WINTER ICE; im trying to keep up the fight, not sure if im still winning tho, but im deffo still fighting. im glad im an inspiration to u, but i struggle to know what for! im really not being brave, i moan all of the time and make such a fuss, plus i constantly cry, i promise im not brave, just simply contiuing to live for the meantime!...nothing brave about that i assure u!! thanku ever so much for those lovely lovely kind words, theyve made me teary see here i go again!) i cant believe the lovely things people can say! thanks ...u have truly touched me! i hope u have a wonderful christmas that is as special as u are! lots of love xxx p.s. i will never ever forgot u or those words u have just written! xxx

    ONEDAYATATIME;thanku...but i promise u, im really not. just not got any choice in the matter. i hope ur ok xxxxx

    To everyone... thanku again, u have no idea what a difference it makes to my day to see a reply! I truly truly appreciate it! i pirmise il always write back, just takes me sometime to feel well enough at times! Thanku again and sending each and everyone of u so much love and cuddles

    All my love, Karlie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

    ps.sorry for the essay again...i was bored can u tell? pls dnt feel u have to reply a long msg...or even reply at all! just i have lots of time on my hands it would appear now its 1:38 am!! xxxxx

    pps - it was 1.38 am but have had to try and resend this post coz it got rejected. so annoying. lots of love to u all xxx

     

     

    awwwwww hunni i hope ur feeling better. At least you will be able to enjoy christmas with ur family and friends. ur sisters idea is gr8 at least then u will always be there for the people u love. I hope we will keep in touch throughout the next few weeks/months and hope that ur pain is minimised

    lots of love,

    Nina

    xxx

  • SilverMoonLight

    18 December 2011 at 11:53

     

     heyya beautiful x 

    well, its really gd that ur feelig a little better, must be all that posetive thinking (and sleeping too) ;-) i cant even imagen how scared u must be, but im still here to wish u luck and comfort x 
    ur ward sounds so cool at christms! i was in hospital last year cos of my epilepsy and they decorated that all christmassy aswell! plus they came round with elf costumes and gave us presents x i was grateful for cheer-up xxx
    hmmm... a famous person is coming to ur hospital!? wow, thats so cool! unfortunetly im not verry good at guessing but it all sounds really exiting! hope it goes well and u dont fall asleep ;-) :-P

    well lets see whats been happening in she life of silver... it was my birthday on wednesday, and i know it was a while bk now but it was that best birthday i have bad in a long time i can tell u! i got so much cake, and cupcake related things- even socks in c cupcake case thing so they look like cake ;-) epic x then we had christmas at school on thursday, and staffpanto which was really funny. they all dressed up and this music teacher that left last year came back to be in it which was good :) 
    but then last night bout 4pm i started to get a headache :( but cos of my epilepsy i have a cyst (like a small lump) in my brain, and the headace was there so i was hoping its nothing to do with that, cos i lost some of my vision nd it was freeking me out abit :/ but its a bit better now :) 
    but then cos i was awake i started reading a book i got for my birthday -looking for alaska- heard of it? its really good, but a bit sad in the middle but its made me sort of cange the way i c things :-o when i was up this morning having finnished the book by 3am i was thinking about life and how we dont really die at all, and i was thinking about u and how brave u r being :) 

    hope ur feeling better huni, and lookforward to hearing about this famous mysterie that is coming to visit

    love u lotts like jelly totts, in my prayers <3 

    SilverMoonLight Xx

  • lovethelifeyoulive3

    19 December 2011 at 19:58

     

    You are one of the bravest people i think i have ever come across sweetie! Try and get everything you can off your chest because im sure you will feel so much better:). Tell your parents and friends everything you want them to know and im sure they will open up to you aswell. I wish i had the chance to tell my bestfriend and everyone else i have lost how i felt about them before heaven called for another gorgeous angel!

    Stay positive&strong sweetie pie&enjoy your christmas as much as you can beautiful girl!

    love you lots+lots...YOUR A TRUE INSPIRATION!

    xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

  • Charlie7407

    20 December 2011 at 15:45

     
    Karlie07 - 17 December 2011 at 18:56

     

     H

    sorry its taken ages to write back, ive been a bit porly again but feeling a bit better now. im still in hospital but my pain is a little bit more under control now which is good :) Started writing this message this morning but then as per usual i fell asleep after a few mins and somebody must of put the laptop away when they were tucking me up. i hadnt saved the message and id written LOADS! so annoying but nevermind. Been really poorly the last few days and asleep most of the time, todays the first day i have really been with it and the ward looks like Santas grotto, its really cool, theres loads of fake snow and 3 christmas trees. theres a day room with a kitchen and tv and stuff and the tree in there is enormous! is quite cool. I hope everybody is well and looking forward to christmas! thankyou again so much for ur messages, they mean sooooo much to me and i look forward to reading them so much! Thankyou x

    THIS IS THE LIFE; Hey hun,pls dont feel sad for me. i know its a little bit sad but i guess im really lucky that i know when im guna go (or kinda when anyway) I am really terrified of it but i guess as well that i get to make sure that everyone knows how much i love them and also to make as many memories as i can for the people that i will leave.it is scary but so many people never ever get that chance, im just trying to reach out for the positives! I really dont feel like im being brave at all, i  cry at least everyday and im so frightened to go to sleep - even tho thats what i do most of the time! Heeehe, i dont think my story is anything courageous...it just sucks a bit! i have been writing a diary since i was diagnosed, it started off so i could write down any questions i thought of for the doctors and nurses but now it just has a lot of moaning in it (and a few funny stories about my sisters and other stuff like being in hospital and friends ive made!) thanku for saying all those lovely things about me...but they rnt really that true. im just normal i think :) am guna try to have a good christmas and not sleep thru all of it!! i hope u do too thanku again for writing,it means ever so much. love you xxxx

    REE REE;thanks for replying, im guna try not to b scared of death..but its really hard! Am in quite alot of pain at the moment so i get worried that its guna hurt more soon but the doctors and nurses are doing there best.i cry loads and i hate it but ur right people dnt seem to mind.me and my sisters watched loads of soppy movies the other day just so it seemed like there was a point to crying..it was fun but i slept thru most of the films! oops!i hope my family do realise i will always b in their hearts, thats where i wan2 b and see them all smiling :) il try and have the best christmas! thanks. i hope u do too!! xxxx

    NINA; Hello! thanku for replying again, so lovely to hear from u! im so sorry once agian about ur friend but so glad to hear ur starting to get thru it.i cant imagine hoew u must of felt but u sound so brave! im asleep lots of the time so my days are quite quick but i feel so sorry for my friends and family who spend all day here at the hospital,only for me to be sleeping! how rude hey!

    id like to think thaat il be up in the sky somewhere, my sister said that she thinks of me becoming the angel we put on top of our christmas tree every year! i like that :) i love christmas and so think thats quite fun.maybe u could think of ur friend each time u look at whatevers on the top of ur christmas tree? im glad to hear ur ok now, im sorry its not always the way but im sure she would b sooooo proud if u. thanku for helping me by talking to me, it means so much to talk to someone that has been thru what my family is going thru now....im just sorry it means u have lost somebody :( will try to stay strong...just wish theyd sort out my pain and then i wld b more free to do fun stuff! nevermind!!! have a great christmas, my prayers are with u,your friend and her family xxxxx

    SPARKLES; thanku for saying that...but i really dont feel either beautiful or strong!!! my eyes look ive been punched at the moment coz ive been rubbing them but becoz my skin is so delicate right now coz my blood is all infected and nasty ive got two black bruises around my eyes! not cool. also my skin is so sensitive right now i cant wear my wig so i definatley am not looking beautiful or amazing! and strong is the total opposite of how im feel hehhee! i feel like a 100 years old, all frail and granny like and i cry at everything! oops! am trying to create memories with friends and family but im so damn tired all the time and got no energy so it is a little limited! never mind tho weve done lots and lots together b4 i was poorly anyway!  I am so terribly sorry to hear about ur friend! Leukaemia is soooooo rubbish! grrrr! im positive tho she will b looking down and be super super proud of u! think of her often and think of her with a smile...coz thats what i want people to do wheb im not here! thanks for chatting to me...it is so nice on childline to b party of a family...it cheers me up so much hearing from u lot! it really does. big cuddles and lots of love xxxx

    BLONDE; hey hun, so sorry to hear about ur mum :( that sooo rubbish! Has her chemo stopped now? how is she doing? I had no idea what it was going to b like to go thru cancer and treatment and to be really honest i think i have had the easiest time. everyone is always worrying about me, looking after me, making me comfy, buying me lovely presents. its my family that i worry about the most coz it is so stressful.sometimes i get sick or shout coz im in pain and i know how hard my family find it being really helpless.i think ur sooo amazing and if i can ever answer any of ur questions (tho i rpob wouldnt b able to!) then pls ask, i will try and also im in hosp so cld ask someone for u! i really hope ur mummy gets better soon. praying for u, ur mum and ur family. lots of love xxxx

    SILVER;Hi Silver, thanks for replying. love hearing from u so very much. had a bad week so not been up to much which is a bit rubbish but been in bed lots of the time -still been chatting and watching films with my sisters tho when i can, must b very boring for them but its nice for me to hear about whats going on outside of my bed!!! yeah nature isnt so great at this one is it? just get so frightened when the pain gets worse or my breathing goes funny that is going to happen then. so scary! but they ho...it still hasnt :)  havent really been up to much coz have felt so poorly but did watch some good films at times, lots of disney classices...i love them all but especially lion king. we went to see the stage show last year.....its amazing! also i love the circle of life song coz it helps me not to be so scared about everything :) also ive watched catch up of xfactor coz i missed it coz i was really poorly on sunday! im so glad they won!! Yay.next week we some famous people r meant to b coming in to hospital (everytime i try to mention who it is tho my msg gets rejected so i have to leave u guessing!( hehhee. Really hope my skin feels alright that i can wear my wig for a little bit and have some nice pictures taken - got to try and stay awake too (note to self!)  love havinbg conversations with u but ive not got much chat coz i dnt do much! how about u? what have u been up to? thanku sooooo much for chatting to me. I LOVE IT!! ....love YOU! too! very very much! xxxx

    CHARLIE; hello my lovely!!!! how ru? hopsital isnt too bad but still feeling quite rubbish! :( just more annoying than anything and the pain is a bit nasty! but otherwise its kind of nice to b with the people i know here like the other patients and ataff and stuff.ive got a different bed space now to the one ive always had and its really strange...quite nice tho too! ive put loads of pictures and photos up all around my bed so when im really scared i just look at them all. it does help a bit. ive been listening to that jessie j song almost non stop too.i love it so much! i also really like the song thats on one of this years xmas adverts its called please please please let me get what i want..its sung by someone called slow moving millie...yesterday me and my sister listened to it loads and she fell asleep with me during the middle of the day in my bed with me! it was fun coz i felt like i was at home all safe in her bed :)!!

    Yeah i am trying to keep positive, just annoyed at myself for always being tired coz it means i dnt get to do lots...but im just trying my best to do all that i can! thanks for keeping my spirits up, its def best to think positve, coz otherwise u just end up feeling rubbish! I think mayb the doctor must have have magic powers that make him not feel pain! mayb there is a harry potter spell u could do to help with theat? hehhe?!! i think hes just being rubbish myself...could u go to a different doctor? i  really hope u stsart to feel better soon!

    Yeah i did catch up with xfactor, are you plesaed they won? what other tv do u watch? do u like harry potter? and or the twilight films? i do but still havent seen the newset twilight coz i been too poorly. me and my sisters r going to try to watch all of the harry potter in order over the next few day! i cant wait it will b great. i wanted to start reading them all agaibn but i just get too tired! much easier to watch films! Lazy i know|!!!! dont know if u read what i wrote to Silver but hopefully we are having some celebs in to the hosp next week for xmas - really excited :) hope to b well enuf to enjoy it - scrap that I WILL BE!!

    Yeah ive been writing a diary for a long time now so im going to kinda give that to my sisters when im not here anymore, plus all my photos that are stuck up over my walls here! my eldest sister has got a pin board on her bedroom door and it is covered with stuff me and my other sister have done with her, its got like random reciepts for thing and tickets and everything its great! we are deffo going to have a party as soon as im out of hospital. our church have said we can have it in their hall so that will b good. i dont know what i will wear but i want to get something really nice and for once not be too worried about all my scars from my lines. theres nothing i can do to get rid of them and if i didnt have them then i might not be here right now...so i guess i shld try and treasure them and b proud!

    So sorry to hear uve been ill for a while, that sucks, especially if ur still not sure what it is! sorry to hear about u being so ill after u missed the exam.will u still have to do it? im thinking of u loads! wish i could make it all better for u! so much! your just so lovely charlie! ive been on here for almost a year, not really written on message boards a whole lot but found it helpful to tlk to people on 121 chat. how about u? do u phone or chat to childline? im soooo glad i have met u! i think ur great! both my sisters now know i come on here coz i told them a few weeks ago when i got my bad news and they said mayb it was a good idea to tlk to someone. they have made it a rule not to look at what i put tho so that i can say what i want without worrying itf they will see it. how come u ask~? does ne1 know ur on here? thanku again so much charlie for chatting to me! lots of love and big big hug xxx

    WINTER ICE; im trying to keep up the fight, not sure if im still winning tho, but im deffo still fighting. im glad im an inspiration to u, but i struggle to know what for! im really not being brave, i moan all of the time and make such a fuss, plus i constantly cry, i promise im not brave, just simply contiuing to live for the meantime!...nothing brave about that i assure u!! thanku ever so much for those lovely lovely kind words, theyve made me teary see here i go again!) i cant believe the lovely things people can say! thanks ...u have truly touched me! i hope u have a wonderful christmas that is as special as u are! lots of love xxx p.s. i will never ever forgot u or those words u have just written! xxx

    ONEDAYATATIME;thanku...but i promise u, im really not. just not got any choice in the matter. i hope ur ok xxxxx

    To everyone... thanku again, u have no idea what a difference it makes to my day to see a reply! I truly truly appreciate it! i pirmise il always write back, just takes me sometime to feel well enough at times! Thanku again and sending each and everyone of u so much love and cuddles

    All my love, Karlie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

    ps.sorry for the essay again...i was bored can u tell? pls dnt feel u have to reply a long msg...or even reply at all! just i have lots of time on my hands it would appear now its 1:38 am!! xxxxx

    pps - it was 1.38 am but have had to try and resend this post coz it got rejected. so annoying. lots of love to u all xxx

     

     

    Hey there!

    Don't worry about it taking ages its absolutly fine :) I'm glad your pain is more bearable. I understand what you mean i have done that before where the internet has crashed or something after writing a long message -.- I understand how annoyed you would feel haha. The ward sounds great! Itsgood they are making you feel comfortable :)

    I'm ok i guess, Hospitals are rubbish though and boring ;) at least its looking good! Thats a great idea to put the pictures up! Why don't you make a scrap book too? It will keep you busy . I absolutly love both of them songs! Its nice you felt at home and your sister is supporting you, she sounds lovely just like you :)

    Its good you are trying to keep positive and your right it does make you feel a lot better. Dont be annoyed with yourself hun though because its not your fault. I bet my doctors some secret wizard who's graduated from hogwarts haha :P I have got a different one now she's a woman and really nice, I'm seeing her tomorrow i still haven't got a scan date though. I really dont want to go to the doctors though because I'm scared its my fault, that i made myself hurt? I hope you start to feel better soon too and I hope you have a mirical and get better :)

    Yeah I'm pretty pleased they won i think its about time we have a new girl group :) I do indeed watch harry potter they're great! I'm not really a twilight fan though :P I watch casualty and I love britains got talent! :P You watch films if thats what you prefer its not being lazy I dont blame you f your struggling to stay wide awake all the time. I think films are more exciting too so good luck in watching them all ;) wow celebs coming at christmas now thats something you will definately enjoy I'm really happy for you :D Do you have an idea of who's coming or is it a surprise? Do lots of resting so when it comes to the day you'll feel better :)

    Aww your diary sounds really nice. I'm really glad your sisters are helping you through this :) Its nice your church said you could use their hall! I hope you have a great party are you organising it? You should treat yourself to a really nice outfit. Why don't you tell me what its like when you get it i bet you'll look absolutly gorgeous :) Nevermind about your scars! They are there because they saved your life, treasure them and don't worry about them at all!

    Nevermind about me being ill there are people wrose off. I want to know why i feel like this but then again i dont because it might be my fault :/ Thank you for your lovely comments your really nice you know that? :D Yeah I did the exam straight after i confessed. I feel so ashamed of myself but its over and done with and the teacher i confessed to said that the person marking it says i'm doing quite alright anyway.

    I have phoned twice i think but i'd much rather prefer 1-2-1 and i love the messgae boards so much because there are people on here experiencing what i am and everyone on here is really kind. I have been on here for about a year too i'm glad i came on :)I think your great too and your so brave!

    Ahh my mum and dad thought i'd finished coming on they dont think ts good to come on i dont know why so i do it in secret :/ I was just wondering because sometimes people who are too ill to write on here get a member of their family to do it so i was wondering maybe if you are ever too tired you can ask your sisters to write it for you so your not worrying about not replying or straining yourself too much :) Just a suggestion. I think its great that your sisters respect your request of them not to read your threads thats reeally nice.

    Your welcome! I'll chat with you for ever if i could your so amazing :D You reazlly make my day. Dont worry about it being long theres lots of people to reply too :P If it keeps you busy keep at it its good to be busy! (Loving the pps :P haha) 1:38 am wow you must have been tired thank you for replying! How are you today?

    Lots of love and big hugs back :D Take care and stay strong! Charlie7407  xxx

  • surrounded

    29 December 2011 at 22:19

     

    hey, I hope you had the most awesome Christmas! Stay strong, coz there's so many people who love you and even more who care about you, even on a Childline forum!

    If I was in your position I'd be a complete wimp. You really are really brave! Make the most of each second and be happy.

    Thisisthlife xxxxxxxxxxx

  • Charlie7407

    30 December 2011 at 13:26

     

    Hey Karlie!

    Its been a while since you replied... I do hope your ok? Did you have a good christmas? How about the party you were thinking of? Your so brave and i just wanted to wish you a very happy new year and i also want to know if your ok?

    Take care and stay strong! Charlie7407  xxx

  • SilverMoonLight

    01 January 2012 at 14:48

     

    just wante to say that i hope u had a brilliant christmas and a wonderful new year huni! x did u get any nice pressents for christmas? and hpe ur still feeling better <3 i was just a little worried as u havent replyed for a while and im kinda a worry-er ;-) hope ur ok! 

    TakeCare,
    *huggs* 
    Silver Xx

  • Karlie07

    03 January 2012 at 12:49

     

    Hi everyone,

    so sorry ive not written bk, thankyou so much for all ur messages (and charlie for ur 2!!) im ok, im getting pretty run down and tired at the moment, pain is becoming a massive issue so am quite drugged up a lot of the time. however i had literally the most amazing christmas ever!!! some celebrities came to visit the hospital, which ws amazing and so exciting, then on christmas day a father christmas came round and all my family spent the entire day at the hospital with me....even tho i slept most of the day when i was awake at all they were all there and my sisters ended up staying the night and we had a really girlie sleepvoer with another one of the girls in hopsital here with me. the pain is really annoying and hurts a lot but im trying to be brave and just get thru it., i am getting on with organising my party which is in two wkends time, im really excited and for christmas i got an ipad (im using it right now!!! HI!!!) and ive been looking on loads of websites for something pretty to wear to the party, im hopefully going to get a wig where u can striaghten and curl the hair as well and make that look nice...exciting!

    anyway sorry im not replying individaully to everyone but i just get sooooo tired, pls write bk to me and let me know whats going on in ur lifes,,,,,i love love love hearing from anybodu but espec those people ive spoken lots to, u have no idea how much it brightnes up my day! LOADS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    LOVE TO YOU ALL.....AND happy new year|!!!! hope 2012 is the best year ever for u all,

    alll my love always,

    Karlie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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You can change your text settings through your browser options:

In Internet Explorer, go to View > Text size and select your desired text size setting (eg, larger, smaller).

In Firefox, go to View > Text size and increase/decrease using Ctrl and + or -

If you have a scroll wheel on your mouse, you can hold down Ctrl and scroll back or forth to increase or decrease the font size in both IE and Firefox.

Changing your computer screen settings
To change the size of the image shown on your screen on a PC running Windows 95 and upwards, go to Start > Settings > Control Panel > Display > Settings and change the desktop area by using the sliding bar.

On an Apple Mac, you can use the Monitor & Sound Control Panel to change the resolution.

Having difficulty with your keyboard or mouse?
You can fine-tune your mouse and keyboard settings under Start > Settings > Control Panel > Accessibility in Windows 95/98/NT/2000 and XP.

Skipping navigation for talking browsers and screen readers
For speech browsers, you can press Alt and S followed by Enter to skip navigation on our pages.

The site is W3C level AA compliant.

 

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