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  • Karlie07

    28 November 2011 at 02:16

    Cancers spread! So scared!

     

     

    I was diagnosed with A.M.L. - a type of leukaemia 2 1/2 years ago.since then ive been in and out of hospital non stop. 3 months ago we found out the cancer had spread,so I've spent the last 3 months having really strong chemotherapy (a special type of medicine to fight cancer).it's been horrible and has made me feel so poorly but we all hoped it would work! On Friday we went to c the Dr.the medicine hasn't worked and the cancer is all over my body now.there's nothing more that anyone can do.I'm at home now,no mre hospital,no more medicine and no mre needles!I know that's a good thing.but it means I'm dying.I'm so so frightened.I've got between 2-4months to live prob.it's my birthday in April...I prob won't c it and this will definatley b my last Xmas! I'm so frightened and sad.I want to know if it will hurt and I dnt want my family to b sad.that's all I seem to do these days is make people cry.I just want to cry myself but I'm scared it will make everyone worse.am so frightened.would love to hear from ne1 who might want to right bk...and I'm really really sorry for moaning!!! 
    Love and good health to every1
    karlie xxx

     

  • SilverMoonLight

    30 November 2011 at 10:52

     

     oh Karlie huni! *Hugge huggs!* 

    sweetie i think u need to let out ur feelings x i no it might upset other ppl, but if u get it out then u and ur family can enjoy your time together right? its like all those quotes that talk about how the quality of ur life is really important x and im sure ur family and friends would love to have happy memories with u u'no? so like, maby u can make a scrap book with them to help bring back the happy memmories insted of the bad ones x 

    i feel so sorry for u chick, it must be apserlutely terrifying! but i want u to no im hear for u anytime ur sad or just wanting someone to talk to huni, really hope that things get better for u and ur family x 
    Much Love, In My Prayrs,
    TakeCare 
    Silver Xxxxxx

     

     

     

  • thecrime

    30 November 2011 at 13:36

     
    Karlie07 - 28 November 2011 at 02:16

     

     

    I was diagnosed with A.M.L. - a type of leukaemia 2 1/2 years ago.since then ive been in and out of hospital non stop. 3 months ago we found out the cancer had spread,so I've spent the last 3 months having really strong chemotherapy (a special type of medicine to fight cancer).it's been horrible and has made me feel so poorly but we all hoped it would work! On Friday we went to c the Dr.the medicine hasn't worked and the cancer is all over my body now.there's nothing more that anyone can do.I'm at home now,no mre hospital,no more medicine and no mre needles!I know that's a good thing.but it means I'm dying.I'm so so frightened.I've got between 2-4months to live prob.it's my birthday in April...I prob won't c it and this will definatley b my last Xmas! I'm so frightened and sad.I want to know if it will hurt and I dnt want my family to b sad.that's all I seem to do these days is make people cry.I just want to cry myself but I'm scared it will make everyone worse.am so frightened.would love to hear from ne1 who might want to right bk...and I'm really really sorry for moaning!!! 
    Love and good health to every1
    karlie xxx

     

     

     In 2008 my best friend died of brain stem cancer. She'd been having chemo for about a year and a half, maybe even two. I know how hard it must be for you and your family. It shouldn't hurt when you go. Its understandable for people to be sad, don't be frightened to cry, you're in this too. Make the most of the months you have left. Enjoy everyday to the full. You sound sooooo brave and I'm sooooo sorry this has happened to you

    I hope you have a great christmas,

    Love thecrime xxxxx

     

  • cfhelp

    03 December 2011 at 11:04

     

    hi karlie

                     You r sort of in the same situation as me but i am dying of cystic fibrosis. My sister anna is typing everything for me because i am so ill.

    However you can get through this just tell yourself you are going to make it and hopfully you will

    all the best

    Rachel

  • Charlie7407

    03 December 2011 at 15:49

     
    Karlie07 - 28 November 2011 at 02:16

     

     

    I was diagnosed with A.M.L. - a type of leukaemia 2 1/2 years ago.since then ive been in and out of hospital non stop. 3 months ago we found out the cancer had spread,so I've spent the last 3 months having really strong chemotherapy (a special type of medicine to fight cancer).it's been horrible and has made me feel so poorly but we all hoped it would work! On Friday we went to c the Dr.the medicine hasn't worked and the cancer is all over my body now.there's nothing more that anyone can do.I'm at home now,no mre hospital,no more medicine and no mre needles!I know that's a good thing.but it means I'm dying.I'm so so frightened.I've got between 2-4months to live prob.it's my birthday in April...I prob won't c it and this will definatley b my last Xmas! I'm so frightened and sad.I want to know if it will hurt and I dnt want my family to b sad.that's all I seem to do these days is make people cry.I just want to cry myself but I'm scared it will make everyone worse.am so frightened.would love to hear from ne1 who might want to right bk...and I'm really really sorry for moaning!!! 
    Love and good health to every1
    karlie xxx

     

     

    Hello Karlie07!

    I'm so sorry to hear your cancer has spread :( Don't be frightened. You have loads waiting for you on the other side. Really keep fighting and you sound really brave, Why don't you ask your parents if you can have an early birthday and make this christmas special, I dont think it will hurt and your family will be prepared. Tell them you will be looking down on them and you'd like them to keep strong and remember the good times you have had together. You cry if you want to, i'm sure your family will understand,honest. Its best to let it all out then once is all out you can start to spend the last few months happy and doing everything you want to do!

    Your not moaning. You keep strong and i'm here if you ever need to talk. Take care and stay strong! Charlie7407  xxx

  • Karlie07

    04 December 2011 at 00:09

     

    Hi,

    Thankyou all of you sooooo much for replying!! you are all so lovely and it has absolutley made my day! it really has :) Ive been feeling ever so lonely and each of u taking the time to reply to me means so much.

    since my first msg i have spoken to my family a little bit and ive had a meeting with specialist nurse...who was really lovely, unfortunatley ive now got a chest infection and it looks like its going to speed up the process :( im on home oxygen now so i sound a little bit like a robot. ive got no energy and so dad has been carrying me up and down the stairs but im determind tomorrow i will feel a bit better!!!!

    Me and my family have had a lot of tears once i started crying i couldnt really stop, me and my older sisters made a massive list of things i still want to do, i know some of them we prob wont achieve as now with the chest infection its just going to b weeks not months. i know its silly but id just rather know, i know its difficult for mum and dad but my nurse is really honest with me...which is what i want. everybody is being so nice to me but i still feel so scared. i feel so poorly and weak and like im giving in, im trying so hard but it doesnt seem enough, feel like im wasting my life ...im not ready to die! i stll worry if it will hurt or if i will just fll asleep and not wake up, i get scared of closing my eyes incase that happens..silly i know but im so frightend!

    SILVER: thanku so much for ur hugs!!! im sending u a massive one back thanku so much its really what i need right now :) and reading ur message has helped me so much not to feel so alone. thanku. sending u so much love xxxx

    THE CRIME:Im so sorry to hear u lost ur best friend, u sound like u were there for her alot.its really lovely to hear from somebody on the other end :) ur msg is sol lvely and reassuring!

    RACHEL: Rachel im so very sorry to hear u have CF, i met somebody in hospital with it and she was so brave and nver moaned, i feel awful for moaning all the time, im such a scaredy cat and u sound incredibly brave! I do keep trying to fight, im just running out of energy i guess. ive got sisters too,i love it!

    CHARLIE: thankyou hun for such a lovely messge, it helped a lot, i do hope i can look down on my friends and family and that we can knda remember the happy times together, im just scared about that time coming i guess, i have been thinking about habing an early birthday party but i am desperate for everyone not to b really sad and i think they might b if we had a big party! i just want to do whatever will hurt them the less ...all i want is for them to b happy thanks for writing to me, it helps so much not to feel alone!!

    Thanku again soooo much all of u for replying, it means so much to me and would love to hear how u all are and whats going on in ur lifes, i know i seem wrapped up in me me me stuff but i dnt mean t b and am here for any of u as well if i can b.

    sending u lots of love and coca cola christmassy adverts,

    karlie xxxx

  • HighFive2

    05 December 2011 at 20:12

     

    I'm so sorry. :'(

    All I can do is wish you the best! :) x

    *Highfive!*

  • SilverMoonLight

    06 December 2011 at 18:33

     
    Karlie07 - 04 December 2011 at 00:09

     

    Hi,

    Thankyou all of you sooooo much for replying!! you are all so lovely and it has absolutley made my day! it really has :) Ive been feeling ever so lonely and each of u taking the time to reply to me means so much.

    since my first msg i have spoken to my family a little bit and ive had a meeting with specialist nurse...who was really lovely, unfortunatley ive now got a chest infection and it looks like its going to speed up the process :( im on home oxygen now so i sound a little bit like a robot. ive got no energy and so dad has been carrying me up and down the stairs but im determind tomorrow i will feel a bit better!!!!

    Me and my family have had a lot of tears once i started crying i couldnt really stop, me and my older sisters made a massive list of things i still want to do, i know some of them we prob wont achieve as now with the chest infection its just going to b weeks not months. i know its silly but id just rather know, i know its difficult for mum and dad but my nurse is really honest with me...which is what i want. everybody is being so nice to me but i still feel so scared. i feel so poorly and weak and like im giving in, im trying so hard but it doesnt seem enough, feel like im wasting my life ...im not ready to die! i stll worry if it will hurt or if i will just fll asleep and not wake up, i get scared of closing my eyes incase that happens..silly i know but im so frightend!

    SILVER: thanku so much for ur hugs!!! im sending u a massive one back thanku so much its really what i need right now :) and reading ur message has helped me so much not to feel so alone. thanku. sending u so much love xxxx

    THE CRIME:Im so sorry to hear u lost ur best friend, u sound like u were there for her alot.its really lovely to hear from somebody on the other end :) ur msg is sol lvely and reassuring!

    RACHEL: Rachel im so very sorry to hear u have CF, i met somebody in hospital with it and she was so brave and nver moaned, i feel awful for moaning all the time, im such a scaredy cat and u sound incredibly brave! I do keep trying to fight, im just running out of energy i guess. ive got sisters too,i love it!

    CHARLIE: thankyou hun for such a lovely messge, it helped a lot, i do hope i can look down on my friends and family and that we can knda remember the happy times together, im just scared about that time coming i guess, i have been thinking about habing an early birthday party but i am desperate for everyone not to b really sad and i think they might b if we had a big party! i just want to do whatever will hurt them the less ...all i want is for them to b happy thanks for writing to me, it helps so much not to feel alone!!

    Thanku again soooo much all of u for replying, it means so much to me and would love to hear how u all are and whats going on in ur lifes, i know i seem wrapped up in me me me stuff but i dnt mean t b and am here for any of u as well if i can b.

    sending u lots of love and coca cola christmassy adverts,

    karlie xxxx

     

     ah huni ur so so sweet! and r u feeling better today? poitivitys the best attitude to have! 
    and huni thers apserlutely no shame in crying, its gd that u let it all out x and again, nothing at all wrong with being scared x i know id be really terified in ur position *big cuddles* but i hope ur not in pain at all x 
    and sweet heart, dont ever feel alone! make the most of what uve got, and u no if u ever EVER need me, im on here most of the time so ill get bk to u as soon as i posibly can! 
    Love u chick, and TaceCare 
    *More Massive Hugs*
    Silver Xxx

  • Kiz93

    07 December 2011 at 14:24

     

    Hello,

    i'm so sorry to hear about your condition (i know you must get that alot) In a way I can understand how you are feeling, In May I had Meningitis which also caused a right sided venous sinus thrombosis which is a blood clot on my brain. They gave me a 15% chance to live. During that time I was so scared but like you I had a nurse who was amazing and I also made a list of things i've always wanted to do. You need to remember when this life ends you enter a new one, almost a second chance to do all the things you wanted! And when you do get your second chance i'm sure you will acomplish all of your dreams. The fight is never over, and even when you are gone everyone will still remember you! stay strong, I know its hard but you will be glad you did! Never stop believing, and when your time comes it will be just how you want it to be!

    All the best and Good luck xxxx

  • Charlie7407

    07 December 2011 at 17:25

     
    Karlie07 - 04 December 2011 at 00:09

     

    Hi,

    Thankyou all of you sooooo much for replying!! you are all so lovely and it has absolutley made my day! it really has :) Ive been feeling ever so lonely and each of u taking the time to reply to me means so much.

    since my first msg i have spoken to my family a little bit and ive had a meeting with specialist nurse...who was really lovely, unfortunatley ive now got a chest infection and it looks like its going to speed up the process :( im on home oxygen now so i sound a little bit like a robot. ive got no energy and so dad has been carrying me up and down the stairs but im determind tomorrow i will feel a bit better!!!!

    Me and my family have had a lot of tears once i started crying i couldnt really stop, me and my older sisters made a massive list of things i still want to do, i know some of them we prob wont achieve as now with the chest infection its just going to b weeks not months. i know its silly but id just rather know, i know its difficult for mum and dad but my nurse is really honest with me...which is what i want. everybody is being so nice to me but i still feel so scared. i feel so poorly and weak and like im giving in, im trying so hard but it doesnt seem enough, feel like im wasting my life ...im not ready to die! i stll worry if it will hurt or if i will just fll asleep and not wake up, i get scared of closing my eyes incase that happens..silly i know but im so frightend!

    SILVER: thanku so much for ur hugs!!! im sending u a massive one back thanku so much its really what i need right now :) and reading ur message has helped me so much not to feel so alone. thanku. sending u so much love xxxx

    THE CRIME:Im so sorry to hear u lost ur best friend, u sound like u were there for her alot.its really lovely to hear from somebody on the other end :) ur msg is sol lvely and reassuring!

    RACHEL: Rachel im so very sorry to hear u have CF, i met somebody in hospital with it and she was so brave and nver moaned, i feel awful for moaning all the time, im such a scaredy cat and u sound incredibly brave! I do keep trying to fight, im just running out of energy i guess. ive got sisters too,i love it!

    CHARLIE: thankyou hun for such a lovely messge, it helped a lot, i do hope i can look down on my friends and family and that we can knda remember the happy times together, im just scared about that time coming i guess, i have been thinking about habing an early birthday party but i am desperate for everyone not to b really sad and i think they might b if we had a big party! i just want to do whatever will hurt them the less ...all i want is for them to b happy thanks for writing to me, it helps so much not to feel alone!!

    Thanku again soooo much all of u for replying, it means so much to me and would love to hear how u all are and whats going on in ur lifes, i know i seem wrapped up in me me me stuff but i dnt mean t b and am here for any of u as well if i can b.

    sending u lots of love and coca cola christmassy adverts,

    karlie xxxx

     

    Hello!

    Your lovely too you sound like a really nice person :)

    I'm glad to hear you have talked to your family! And your nurse is nice :) The worst time of year to get a chest infection i am so sorry about this :( If it speeds up the process that must be really frightening for you, just remember what i said and try to enjoy the last few months you have. Sounding like a robot isn't that bad, if only you could pick and choose when to sound like one, i love it when i sound like a robot but that doesn't come so often :/ There is always a chance you will feel better the next day, keep believing andkeep fighting. My doctor says that if you think the pain isnt there then you wont feel it. I personally dont think thats entirly true but you could try it see if it works :P

     Like i said its good to cry much better than holding it in. Have you ever heard Jessi J's song Who you are, it has a phrase in it saying tears dont mean your loosing? Well that sentence means a lot to me it might mean a lot to you? Keep that list safe, maybe you could write one for your family members to do to :P If i was to write one i'd ask my mum to go skydiving so i could watch her from above :) hehe she's not the sort to do that stuff ;) Could you maybe ask your nurse whether it will hurt, i dont think it will but if your still worried ask her she may know :) I understand you when you say your scared to close your eyes, i would be too. What i always do is when i go to bed i always try and remember the last thing i said to my mum just incase something bad happens and i always make sure i make it something nice.

    You will be able to look down on your family and friends and make sure they know that :) I think an early birthday party will be really good for you, it may be sad but think about how you could get every one you loved and care for in one big place and have a night you will really enjoy. At least then you have seen everyone at once and you can maybe tell them how proud you are of them or how much you'll miss them etc. Yopu need to know its not you hurting them, they are not hurt they're just upset, early grieving perhaps, its definatly not you who is hurting them please don't think it is.

    I'll be on here for a long time so if you ever feel lonley or want to talk then i'll be here for you. All the way. You keep fighting! You dont really want to know much about whats going on in my life :P now that would be moaning hehe, i'm just ill and I have Generalized anxiety disorder so most of the time i come on here if i am worried orstressed or really down, and half of the time i come on here to talk to all the lovely people on here :) How are you feeling today?

    Haha they are quite famous them adverts ;) Sending lots of love back... Take care and stay strong! Charlie7407  xxx

  • essexgirl818

    07 December 2011 at 21:19

     

     i feel so sorry for you hun. My best mate died of leaukaemia earlier this year because of the same reason. Hopefully you will pass in ur sleep like my mate did but if not try and have ur family at ur bedside. Ur family will be hurting inside but deep down they know that you are going somewhere safer and you will not be in pain anymore. Do as many things that you've wanted to do in ur life as you can. It will make u feel better. I wish there was some other way i could help. If u ever need a chat well then i'm here for u. Good luck hopefully talk to u soon :) keep ur chin up and think positive

    Nina

    xxxxxxx

  • Karlie07

    10 December 2011 at 01:16

     

    Hi!

    firstly thanku sooooooooooo much for replying to me. you have no idea what it means to me!!!!!! sorry its taken me a little while to write back, i got taken into hospital again in the early hours of tuesday morning coz i had trouble breathing and was in lots of pain, i got taken to intensive care and got really scared coz i thought 'it' was going to happen. but it didnt :) i got given a special mask to help me breathe (its even noiser that the oxygen) and got given lots of medicine to help the pain. things are a little bit better now and im on a normal ward again. the pain is still bad but the medicine keeps making me sleepy which helps me rest but it just hurts if i move to much. ive been asleep all day and now again that its nighttime my eyes dont want to close...rubbish!am trying to b a bit more positive tho as i thort that was it on tues...but it wasnt so i shld just b thankful that i have got even more time with all the people around me! Thankyou so very much for replying to me, its been so nice to see people have writtenback. it stops the boredom, distracts me and most of all it stops me from feeling so lonely, so from all of my heart thanku thanku thanku!!! xxxx

    HI FIVE; thanku for ur msg, it really means a lot. i hope u are ok. sending u lots of love xxxxxxx

    SILVER; MASSIVE HUG AND SQUEEZE BACK!!!!!yeah i agree, although being positive is really hard when i know what the outcome is going to b, it does really help to make me feel like im making the most of the moments i do have. some people dont even get this long with there familys or never get the chance to tell important people how much they love them...ive got that chance and im trying to take it :)i am really scared and i feel like i spend way too much time crying, its helped tlking to the nurse but at the end of the day i dnt think i can do anything but b a little bit sad and scared coz unfortunatley nothing is going to change whats going to happen. Thanku once again for replying, u truly do help me not to feel so alone! its so nice to see a reply from u!
    love u loads and loads and more massive cuddles heading straight to u xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

    KIZ; im so very sorry to hear what u have been thru, u sound amazing to have coped with all of that. massive inspiration. unfortunatley the cancer is definatlety progressed so far that there will only b one outcome but i am trying very hard to stay positve and enjoy each day to the full, even if somedays it means that all i can achieve is brushing my teeth and changing in to clean pjs i think its better than nothing?! havew u done lots of things on that list that u wanted to do? i cant do lots of the things on my list now but me and my big sisters sat and talked about them this evening as if we had done them, it was fun! i said how i wanted to go to the beach (but its far to cold now and we cant take the oxygen on long journeys) so my sister brought me in a little pot of sand, when im up to it we are goiing to find some music with waves on and then put sand on our feet so it feels like we r there...i think we will just end up getting very messy! oopps! but it sounds fun too. thanku for all ur lovely words, i hope that when the time comes everything is right and that people do remember happy things not just sad things. more than i want to get better ( which i wish i cld so veryh much) i want my family to b happy. that wld mean so much to me. thanku for really understanding me, it feels like very few people do, but i guess not many people as young as us face the fear of death. scary hey!thanku again and thanku for being so inspirational., ur so very brave xxxxx

    CHARLIE; Hello my lovely, thanku for replying :) yeah it suchs having a chest infection and it is really scary that its sped everything up, i just feel really poorly, but i am just trying to enjoy each day as much as i can, and i do realise im fortunate enough im even here for a tiny bit longer, so many people dnt even get the time ive already had! i do feel better than i did yesterday but guess im feeling worse than a week ago which sucks, i am still fighting and its just made me want to fight harder, i realise i cant beat it but i just want each day to mean something not just sit and wait to go. im not sure about what ur doctor said, im in pain all the time, i guess its better when i dnt think about it but its defo stilll there! if that really worked then no1 wld ever feel pain ...right?however its a lot more fun smiling than being sad even if it does take more effort! i love that jessie J song sooooo much! i think its amazing, i love the words, seeing is decieving, dreaming is believing! i love it!!!! thanku for reminding me of it, im going to listen to it on my ipod in a min to try and think of nice things! what other songs do u like? do u watch the xfactor? i hope i can watch it tomoz but i will prob fall asleep! yeah the list is nice and safe, ive given it to my oldest sister and shes going to look after it. that sounds like such a cool idea about ur mum doing a skydive, my mum and dad always wanted to do a hot air ballon ride, dad booked one but i was too poorly for them to go so mayb they cld do it when im not hear.i like to think that il b in the clouds some day and i willl just b floating past them, i think thats how i want to think of it anyway.it sounds less scary that way! i find it really ard to let anybody leave at the moment coz i get scared it willl b the last time or i will die on my own, but thats a really nice thing about making sure u say something really nice before bed!!! :) my mummy always says 'nighty night shirts' before bed-i like that i think i will have a party if we can arrange it, i want to dress up nice and things, it wld b really fun.even if im tired i could still b around everyone and know they r there! that wld b the best bit. just hate making everyone sad, wld have to just make sure we had lots of happy music on!! :) hehhe and definatley a bit of jessie j. im sorry to hear ur ill alot. have u been ill for a long time, that anxierty disorder sounds really nasty, my sister had a panic attack once and that was bad enough. ur illness sounds horrible but im so glad uve come on here coz it means ive got to chat to u..which i think is sooo great! :) (coz ur great!) thanks again so much for writing back,its so lovely to hear from u and it does make me feel so much less lonely. it really really does! sending u a massive cuddle. lots of love xxx

    NINA; so sorry to hear about ur friend. how did u cope? did anything she say or do make things easier or harder for u? i just want to know whats best for my friends and family. u sound very brave and i hope ur ok. i do hope that i just fall asleep and i have my family there but its really scary to think about too. trying to stay positive. i hope ur ok, thanku for replying. lots of love and ur friend is in my prayers xxxx

    To all of u, sorry about my essay of a letter but i get so bored at nightime it just seemed like the best thing to do. thanku so much for replying, u truly have no idea how very grateful i am. so much love to all of u, stay nice and toasty! lots of love and hugs, K xxxx

  • surrounded

    10 December 2011 at 22:52

     

    Oh, Karlie! I feel very sad for you, but you'll be in a better, peaceful place. I'll pray for you, and for your family. You are being extremely brave! If I was in your place, I would be a silly little coward. You know, I think you should record your story and write about your courageous experience which would inspire people everywhere. you sound like the most amazing person, keep hanging onto that. Convince your family and friends that you'll never truly leave them.

    have a great Christmas, say anything and try to do anything you've ever wanted to do, love you Karlie xxxxxxxx

  • ReeRee1995

    12 December 2011 at 18:16

     
    Karlie07 - 28 November 2011 at 02:16

     

     

    I was diagnosed with A.M.L. - a type of leukaemia 2 1/2 years ago.since then ive been in and out of hospital non stop. 3 months ago we found out the cancer had spread,so I've spent the last 3 months having really strong chemotherapy (a special type of medicine to fight cancer).it's been horrible and has made me feel so poorly but we all hoped it would work! On Friday we went to c the Dr.the medicine hasn't worked and the cancer is all over my body now.there's nothing more that anyone can do.I'm at home now,no mre hospital,no more medicine and no mre needles!I know that's a good thing.but it means I'm dying.I'm so so frightened.I've got between 2-4months to live prob.it's my birthday in April...I prob won't c it and this will definatley b my last Xmas! I'm so frightened and sad.I want to know if it will hurt and I dnt want my family to b sad.that's all I seem to do these days is make people cry.I just want to cry myself but I'm scared it will make everyone worse.am so frightened.would love to hear from ne1 who might want to right bk...and I'm really really sorry for moaning!!! 
    Love and good health to every1
    karlie xxx

     

     

     Don't ever be afraid of death. It wont hurt. It'll be fine. Don't you worry hunny. It's okay to cry. It's always okay. Your family will always be by your side and don't worry about making them sad. They will be hurt that you will no longer be with them in flesh but you will always be in their hearts and because they know that they will always be happy. Don't be scared and have the greatest Christmas ever, in case it is, sadly, your last xxx

  • essexgirl818

    12 December 2011 at 20:26

     

    Hi karlie,

    It was hard but i has to get through it somehow. I knew that she wouldn't of wanted everyone to be upset and crying. Tell your parents everything you want them to know or anything you would like them to do. Also that you don't want this to happen anymore than they do. Tell them to think of it as Earth losing a person and heaven gaining an angel-a beautiful one. I'm sure they will appreciate what you are saying and understand what you want and don't want.

    I am ok now thanks but there are still moments when i think of her and what she could be doing.

    I know it's hard but try and stay positive about this otherwise you will make yourself worse.

    Thank you Karlie, i hope ur still going strong and have a great christmas. Stay strong,

    lots of love to you too and talk soon :)

    nina

    xxxx

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We've put together a few tips and help for you. Please send us a message if you can't find what you're looking for. Or you have a suggestion of something we could include.

Using the keyboard instead of the mouse
As well as using the tab key to navigate through the screen, the ChildLine website has special access keys:

Alt+S = skip navigation
Alt+1 = home
Alt+0 = accessibility information.

Is the text size too large or too small?
You can change your text settings through your browser options:

In Internet Explorer, go to View > Text size and select your desired text size setting (eg, larger, smaller).

In Firefox, go to View > Text size and increase/decrease using Ctrl and + or -

If you have a scroll wheel on your mouse, you can hold down Ctrl and scroll back or forth to increase or decrease the font size in both IE and Firefox.

Changing your computer screen settings
To change the size of the image shown on your screen on a PC running Windows 95 and upwards, go to Start > Settings > Control Panel > Display > Settings and change the desktop area by using the sliding bar.

On an Apple Mac, you can use the Monitor & Sound Control Panel to change the resolution.

Having difficulty with your keyboard or mouse?
You can fine-tune your mouse and keyboard settings under Start > Settings > Control Panel > Accessibility in Windows 95/98/NT/2000 and XP.

Skipping navigation for talking browsers and screen readers
For speech browsers, you can press Alt and S followed by Enter to skip navigation on our pages.

The site is W3C level AA compliant.

 

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