Hi there,
Well done for having the courage to write to me. It sounds like you’re having a really tough time right now, and you have done really well to ask for some support.
You said in your letter that you hate yourself and you’re feeling trapped in your own head and you feel like you might burst. You sound frightened of something, but you don’t say what of. I’m wondering if something has happened to make you feel scared, or perhaps it’s the way you’re feeling that is really scary for you. Or it could be both.
You sound like you might be overwhelmed with how you’re feeling. What would it be like to get in touch with ChildLine and let them know a bit more about how you’re feeling and what’s going on for you? They would be happy to listen to you and they could help you to think about when these feelings started, and ways that you might be able to change or improve things.
You could phone ChildLine for free on 0800 1111, and when you get through, the counsellors there are warm and friendly, and they will take the time to listen to you. You could also get in touch by using 1-2-1 chat on the ChildLine website, or you could email them instead. They are open all the time too, and it’s up to you how and when you get in touch if you choose to do that.
Take care,
Sam