Hello there
It appears that you are very worried at the moment. Your boyfriend should be concerned about whether you are ready and whether this is something you both want. If you don’t feel ready then it’s important that you let him know.
Caring and loving someone means respecting their feelings, so your boyfriend should respect your feelings about this. It’s okay to need time to feel ready to take this step.
It’s a big decision – sex can affect you emotionally as well as physically and it’s important to consider whether you have really thought about all the consequences. There could be sexually transmitted infections/diseases and of course, pregnancy, both of which can change your life.
You are right to want some more time if you are not ready and your boyfriend should understand this. If he doesn’t then it may be a sign that he might not be the right person for you. The person who loves you will wait for you.
You don't tell us your age but it is illegal for someone to have a sexual relationship unger the age of 16yrs, for more information and advice you can also check out www.likeitis.org.uk or www.brook.org.uk.
Take care
Sam