Hi, and thank you for writing to me.
From what you’ve written it looks like your relationship with your mum is almost at breaking point and you need help to sort out what you want to do next. You said everything you do is wrong, but from what you’ve told me it’s your mum who’s being the problem, not you.
All the things that your mum has done, like lying about you and putting you down are wrong, and I wonder if she’s always been like that, or whether her drinking has something to do with it? In any case it shouldn’t be happening to you. I’m quite worried about what’s been happening, and although I’m glad that your boyfriend is loving and supportive, it seems that you may need more support too. It’s quite difficult for me to say what you should do about this without talking it over with you, but if you’re looking for advice and support, the people at ChildLine will be able to help you. I wonder how you’d feel about ringing them on 0800 1111? The lines there are open all the time and calls are free. You can also sign up for a ChildLine account and chat to a ChildLine counsellor online.
There will be practical things you can do about your situation, but I don’t want to go into them in a letter - it will be much easier if you discuss things with a ChildLine counsellor.
Good luck and take care.
Sam