Hi there
You sound very lonely and confused at the moment with lots going on.
You haven't really told me too much about what’s happening at home so I'm struggling to say whether your home issue is the reason that your friends have turned away from you.
I wonder if there is just one person in the group that you are close to that you could try and speak to about what’s happening?
You say that you have no one to turn to and no one who cares for you. There is always someone at ChildLine for you to talk to if you would like to make contact. You can do this by phoning 0800 1111 or log in and have a 1-2-1chat.
Together with a counsellor you might be able to work out what’s going on at the moment and feel less alone. Come and have a look at the ChildLine message boards and send in a post to see what advice others think you should do.
Please take care
Sam