Thanks for your message.
It sounds like you are going through a tough time at the moment.
You told me that your boyfriend is disrespectful and abusive towards you and that he has threatened to put you to sleep. I want you to know that what your boyfriend is saying and doing is wrong and no one deserves to be treated in this way.
You ask me what you should do because you just want to curl up and die. I am really concerned to hear that you are starting to think this way in order to cope with the way things are. I’m not able to tell you what you should do but it feels like it might be worth considering whether you wish to continue with the relationship. When we are in difficult situations it can sometimes be helpful to write a list of things that are good and bad or positive and negative about our situation. This can help us to decide what we want to change, and how quickly we want or need that change.
I’m wondering if you have been able to talk to anyone else about how you feel and whether you have gained any advice from people who know you both. This can seem hard to do but lots of young people tell me that talking really helps. If you would like to talk more about the situation, you could speak to a ChildLine counsellor by phoning them on 0800 1111, chatting on 1-2-1 or sending them an email. You would be able to explore things more with them and they would try to help you find a way of deciding what to do.
There is some information on the ChildLine website about relationship issues which you might like to check out. You could also check out the message boards to see how other young people may be coping in similar situations.