Hi and thanks for your letter.
It sounds like it was a very exciting time when you realised your crush might like you too, but it also seems like you are a little bit anxious about having your first boyfriend and the things that might go with that. It’s perfectly understandable to feel this way-this is new for you, and you are experiencing lots of different emotions.
Lots of young people feel the same – you may find it useful to look on the website message boards to see how others cope who may be in similar situations to you. Do you ever get the chance to speak to this boy as a friend? Sometimes, it can be easier to get to know someone this way without the pressure of him being your boyfriend. Could you arrange for a group of you to go out together? That way you could ask your crush along but feel safe with your friends around to support you.
I hope some of this helps and that everything works out the way you hope it does.
Take care
Sam