Hello
Thank you for sending your letter to me.
It sounds like you feel caught in the middle between what your boyfriend wants to happen in the future and what you want to happen in the future. It also sounds like you feel that, by not going to university, you would be disappointing your family. Whilst it can be useful to take into account the feelings of others in situations like this, you should try to do what is best for you in the long run.
This isn’t always an easy thing to do but it sounds like you already have some idea of what you would like to do. I can hear that you really love your boyfriend and it might be an idea for you to write down on a piece of paper the advantages and disadvantages of doing what he wants, compared to doing what you want.
I would encourage you to take the next step and come and talk to one of the counsellors at ChildLine as this will give you the opportunity to have a chat about this in real time. The counsellors can also help you find ways of coping with the situation so you don’t feel so down. You can contact by phone on 0800 1111, or sign up on the website for a 1-2-1 chat or send an email.
Take care
Sam