Hi there
I’m really concerned about the situation you find yourself in, and I think it may help to get some support to deal with things at the moment.
It sounds as if you’re living somewhere which might be unsafe, and although you’re just getting by now, it would be better if you had somewhere more suitable for you and your baby.
It’s quite difficult for me to go through all the things that might help - but I do know that if you contact ChildLine then they could help.
ChildLine counsellors will listen to you, and check out what you’d like to happen. They would talk to you about all the things that are going on, and try to help you sort out what you think would be best for you.
I can see from your letter that you’re worried about the baby being taken from you and that you’ve considered suicide before. All that makes me concerned for you, especially because you seem to be dealing with all this alone.
All of this makes me think that calling ChildLine would be a real help to you.
You can call ChildLine on 0800 1111, calls are free, or you could log-in at the ChildLine website and have an online chat in 1-2-1 with a counsellor. I really hope you’ll get in touch with Child Line.
Take care,
Sam