hello, im happy i can find someone to talk to and let my emotions out where someone will understand me. ive been having problems for a long time now, whenever i come home i get blammed for stuff i dont even do, and i get shouted at for it, sometimes my mum/dad hit me. i hate it but they just dont understand..
My dad always seems to take my mums side over everthing and it never used to be like that. i want to run away, ive even had thoughts on killing my self, it just seems that if i did do that no one will care anyway! my mum picks on me all the time, but theres never anyone i can go too.. because i get so angry over it i have trouble at school aswell!
whenever someone comes over my house my mum acts completely different and when they go she acts really horrible to me, and swears like calls me nasty names and things!.. she usually says she is going to send me away somewhere far away from her, i dont understand why someone would say that to there child, i wish i was never born. if i wasnt here things wouldnt be like this, i just want to die! i recently started drinking alcohol and smoking because it gets my anger out, i dont like doing it but it works! ive tryed to stop but its hard i dont know what to do.. ive tried talking to my dad when hes alone but thats late because he goes to work, and he acts nice about it then my mum gets involved and hes horrible to me, i dont know what i have done to diserve this! please help me, thankyou!